:READ 'FOREVER' IF YOU HAVENT ALREADY BEFORE THIS JUST SO YOU KNOW WHAT YOUR READING: I put makeup on over my bruises and cuts and walk outside and to Kana's house and hear her talking to Shannon about me. I ask her about it and she says something about a surprise. I look over and see the boys walking towards me
"I got to go" I say quickly and run down the road. They run after me. I run as far as I can. I look over my shoulder and see them picking stuff up. I continue running down the road. They quickly catch up to me since I'm slow from being out of breath. I feel something hit my leg and see them throwing rocks. They keep throwing them as they hit me in the back and up and down my legs. I turn a corner and a boy pushes me down. He kicks me in my ribs and a car drives by... I yell help but they laugh... The rest come and they all start beating me up... Again.... There's a few girls there too... I start crying again, they back off for a few minutes then start again
"Please just let me die" I yell
"Then just kill yourself" one says and he kicks my stomach and grabs my head and punched me. They continue hitting me
"Hey! Leave him alone!!" I hear Nick yell. I cry.. Wishing I was dead... Nick helps me up
"Are you okay?!" He says and I look up at him
"I'm fine..." I lie and he nods, I cough into my sleeve and see blood. More tears go down my face. I wipe them off and Nick hugs me
"I'm gonna kick there asses." He says and I nod
"Call me the next time this happens" he says and I nod. I wipe the blood off my mouth and he kneels down
"Get on" he says and I jump into his back. He brings me home and up to my room, I lay on my bed
"Mom and dad can't know" I say
"Alex it'll he-" he says
"They can't find out" I say and he nods. He leaves the room and I look at my ceiling and start thinking. I start crying. I grab my phone texting Fynn saying I want to die and no one cares... He answers but I throw my phone across my room. I look into the mirror and start pointing out everything that's wrong... I open my door and look around. I run into the bathroom and start digging through the drawers. I find a razor. I stare at it u until my eyes get blurry from tears. I pull my pants down a little and drag it across my thighs. I put it in my pocket and walk back into my room. I hide it and I wipe my eyes and make sure I look normal. I walk into Jeydon's room
"I felt the pain again, are you okay?" He says
"I got beat up again..." I say
"Where?" He asks
"Face... Stomach... Ribs..." I say
"Then why did I feel pain of my thighs" he says and I shrug
"I get bruised if you do. I can look at my thigh right now and see if your lying." He says
"Fine... I just can't do this anymore... I cut my thighs... Don't tell anyone..." I say and he nods
"Don't do it anymore..." He says and I nod. I look over and see something sticking out of his drawer. I grab it and he quickly takes it away
"Why do you have cigarettes" I say
"It's a friends..." He lies
"Jeydon" I say and he sighs
"There mine..." He says and I nod
"Don't do it anymore..." I say
"Give me the razor" he says
"Give me the cigarettes" I say and he hands them to me. I walk into my room and give him the razor.
"I have a question" I say looking at the cigarettes
"What" he says
"Can I try?" I say holding them up
"No." He says and takes them. He walks outside and I follow him. He takes out a lighter and lights the box on fire and throws it into the fire pit along with the razors.
"What if mom and dad smell it?" I ask
"Dad smokes" he says and I nod. We walk inside and go to his room and sit on his bed
"We can't speak a word about this." He says and I nod, he holds out my hand and I shake it. We do out special hand shake.
"Do you care?" I ask
"Of course?!" He says and I nod
