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I woke up as the sun peered through the opened blinds hitting me in the face. I was tangled in the mess of sheets and Nate's limbs. he looked so peaceful when he slept, making me think how on earth he could go from peaceful to having nightmares.

I carefully and slowly tried to untangle myself without waking him but failed when he groaned. "where are you going?" he asked in a tired voice "to pee and get dressed, we need to go shopping remember." he sighed his eyes still closed as he laid in bed. suddenly he got up pulling on his jeans. looking in the bathroom mirror fixing his hair into his signature quiff, just a bit messier.

"I can see your nipples." he grinned cheekily making me shove his arm. he gripped my waist towards him our lips meeting effortlessly. I wrapped my legs around his waist as he held me against the wall my hands ran through his hair. "I could do this every day all day long and never get bored." he admitted his forehead sitting on my collar bone.

a knock on the door knocked us out of our moment making Nate set me safely back to the floor as I put on my bra. "Dean made breakfast-OH MY GOD IM SO SORRY." James shrilled closing his eyes as I cover myself with Nate's t shirt. "why the fuck would you walk into the room!" Nate barked "I'm so sorry!" James spoke quickly leaving the room. Nate shut the door mumbling a 'prick' putting on his shirt as did I.

we where both finally dressed walking out of our room into the kitchen "we are going shopping." Nate plainly spoke "you don't want to eat first?" Amy asked carefully a small smile playing on her face. Nate groaned not looking at me. "she is smiling isn't she?" he spoke pointing at me. James said a small yes as did Dean and Amy.

Nate sat down swiftly pulling out my seat "you always have to be nice." he mumbled to himself. "and you-" he pointed at James "you don't get to look at her, because you almost saw her boobs. those are my boobs only I get to see them." my cheeks flushed a bright red as I hit Nate's leg. I shoveled a fork full of eggs trying to not focus on the awkward tension. "hurry please." Nate spoke into my ear his hand gripping my thigh. I nodded grabbing my toast and shoving it into my mouth smiling at him "done" I swallowed. he gripped my hand pulling me up from the chair. "have fun! we have lunch at 12." Amy smiled I nodded saying bye as Nate ignored her all together.



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"what about there!" I beamed "it looks adorable." I spoke looking up at Nate as his arm wrapped around my waist. he looked around following where my finger was pointed. he nodded pulling me towards the small shop.

it was a small indie type shop with racks full of jeans and sweaters. dozens of T-shirts and cardigans.
the woman in the shop smiled at us brightly her eyes traveling down Nate's body. something inside me spiked my anger slightly increasing.

"look at this." I turned to see Nate holding up a black dress. it looked semi loose and short. "I like it." he grinned cheekily. "no." I shook my head he shoved it towards me forcing me to take it into my hands.

I looked through the racks of clothes grabbing some dark washed skinny jeans that had some holes. I picked up a white t shirt a light brown knitted sweater cardigan. "you need some of these." I heard Nate's teasingly deep voice making me turn towards him. he held up a several pairs of lace underwear and bras.

"this is my favorite." he grinned raising his eye brows looking at the black lace undergarments. I gripped his arm pulling it down "Nate stop." I blushed deeply. "these. yes." he grabbed a red set putting them into my arms. then the black set also grabbed a pair of fitted jeans dark jeans and at least four black and white simply cotton t shirts. he grabbed some black Calvin Klein's and took the clothes from my arms adding them to his.

"wait I don't want this dress." I tried to pull it back as he looked at my sharply moving his arms away from me. "you're getting the dress, heels you need heels!" he smiled kissing my noise before waving me off as he brought the clothes to the cashier.

I walked to the shoe section as I spotted a pair of lace tights knowing that was the only way I was ever wearing this dress. I picked them up before scanning through the dozen pairs of heels. I settled on a pair of simple nude pumps walking back over to Nate.

the cashiers eyes where locked on Nate as he looked through the dozen of cheap rings and bracelets sat by the cash register uninterested by the girl. "there you are." Nate cheered his arms spread out wide. the woman scanned the clothes as I went to pull out my wallet my hands where gripped and pulled down "I'm paying baby." Nate spoke kissing my head. I went to say no as he pressed his lips against mine "I'm paying." he smiled I sighed giving up and nodding softly.

the woman handed Nate the bag of clothes as we walked out of the shop hand and hand. "we still have an hour before we have to head back to the hotel." I smiled he groaned making me turn to see what was the matter. my eyes landed on a tall blonde as she waved towards Nate. her arms wrapped around him in a hug making me step back.

"Nate!" she squeaked Nate looked uncomfortable and had a unpleasant look on his face. "Sarah." he said in a mono tone. "who is this?" she scanned me up and down making me cross my feet awkwardly. "my girlfriend, Lillie." Nate's arm snaked
around my waist. her facial features twisted "he was mine first! we had sex all the time! which means you have my left overs!" she shouted loudly making me jump back Nate pulled me behind him as he spoke to the insane girl "Sarah, you probably didn't take your medication today, so call your mom and go do that." he paused smiling carefully "and please don't shout at Lillie." she nodded turning her body and walking down the street.

Nate turned to me as I arched my eye brow "I did not fuck her." he quickly spoke his hands running down my arms. I giggled my hand covering my mouth as I did so. "I would hope not, she is quite out there." he agreed his arm looping back around my shoulder pulling me into his side. "I've been thinking of getting a new tattoo." Nate chirped I looked up at him questionably "where? your right arm is full and stomach has a nice amount also." he grinned shrugging as he turned us into a tattoo parlor.

my eyes went wide followed by my mouth. the walls where filled with pictures of guest her came in and got a tattoo most of the people's bodies covered in ink. my eyes fell upon one bringing a smile to my lips seeing Nate standing with a tall man, as he showed off his newest tattoo which happened to be the snake on his shoulder. "Nate!" the same man from the picture on the wall spoke walking to the front of the parlor his arms covered in tattoos as he hugged Nate. "who is the lovely gal?" the man smiled towards me.

"this is my girlfriend Lillie, Lillie this is Patty." Nate said pulling me forward a bit. Patty's hand gripped mine in a friendly hand shake. "so Nate, what do you want today?" Patty asked sitting down at one of the stations.

"I'm thinking a halo, and inside devil horns." Nate spoke Patty and I both turned to Nate confused. "maybe a ying yang I haven't gotten one of those yet." patty slowly turned back around looking through the inks and needles. "why those things?" he questioned still facing away from us.

"because I'm this darkness and Lillie is my light, we balance each other out. it works for us." he says simply and plainly and I can't help but smile as his hand grips mine. "you're going soft Nate." patty teases as Nate rolls his eyes before sitting in the chair. "wrist?" he questions Nate nods as patty starts.

through out the time Nate talked to Patty and I as he gripped my hand, I know it isn't hurting him but I do like the contact. "I have to pee." I blurt before I could stop myself. my cheeks redden as Nate and Patty both look at me. "can you wait? I don't really want you walking around here alone." he try's to smile softly.

"I'm a big girl." I pull back my hand but Nate keeps hold of it. "stop moving Nate." Patty griped as he intently focused on Nate's wrist. "do you want me to wet my pants? that wouldn't be so nice especially if we get back in the car, it would soil your nice seats." I grinned playfully he shot me a look before looking at Patty. "who is all here?" he questioned Patty replied a quick only me as he continued to ink into Nate's skin. "she'll be fine Nate, let her use the Lou." I thanked Patty as Nate let go of my hand slowly.

I walked down the dimly lit hall glancing at each door until I found the one labeled "restroom" I cheered silently as I entered the tiny bathroom doing my business and turning to leave the bathroom.

BANG

my head snapped to the window a shrill leaving my lips as a sign was stuck against the glass "RUN" it read a face appeared beside it making me jump grabbing for the handle of the door. my hands fiddled with the metal door knob as tears began to run down my face. the banging against the window grew louder and harder. my knees buckled underneath me as my arms wrapped around my body.

"LILLIE!" I heard Nate's voice "LILLIE BACK AWAY FROM THE DOOR." I scooted towards the corner as the door slammed against the floor, hinges ripped along with it. I was pulled up into Nate's warm embrace, instantly calming me. "I don't know why I keep letting you go to bathrooms alone." he growled humorously to himself. this hasn't happened in weeks, I don't know why it has started up again. whatever, whoever it is needs to lay off because it's driving me insane. it's making me think I'm going crazy, the face isn't even a face it's like a cloudy dark puff with eyes.

"let's go back to the hotel, we can take a nap before lunch." he smiled lightly as I nodded trying to get up shakily. we walked out out the dark demeanor of the parlor to the bright noon crisp air. I wrapped my jacket tighter around me looking over my shoulder Nate's arm circled around my waist pulling me into his side "you know I would never let anything or anyone hurt you right?" he questioned softly as I walked. I nodded "you're safe with me." he added I wrapped my arm around his waist before murmuring "I know I am."



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we walked into the hotel as Nate put the bags in our room. I followed him as my head pounded. "what do I do?" he questioned slowly "I told you we should have gone home, I knew this would happen." he started panicking I lifted my hand up hopefully shushing him. I massaged my temples lightly trying to rid some of the pressure and pain. "I'll go get you some water." I heard Nate's foot steps disappear then slowly come back.

he knelt in front of me handing me the water. the cold liquid soothing some of the ache. "I don't know what to do." his voice was quite as his hands ran up and down the sides of my legs. I gripped his arm pulling him up to lay down with me. he quickly understood turning off the lights in the room and shutting the blinds. his arm wrapped around my waist as my head nuzzled into his neck. the pain reduced to the darkness and the steady sound of our breathing.

"lunch is read- oh I'm sorry I didn't know, I'm sorry." I heard James stammer my fingers gripped Nate's shirt as I snuggled deeper into his neck. "she doesn't feel well, stop assuming we are fucking." Nate snapped pulling my body closer to his chest. I was too weak to actually tell him to be nice this time. "does your mom have any Advil or something?" Nate's voice was still cold, but much quieter. I heard James say he would go check as the door shut again.

Nate's fingers ran up and down my back soothingly as I drifted in and out. "she has Advil and Pamprin." James voice startled me fully awake my head pounding as he spoke "speak goddamn quieter!" Nate whispered his voice sharp. "what is Pamprin?" Nate questioned making me giggle slightly my eyes still closed. I opened them slowly seeing Nate give me a confused look "uh I don't know, it says bloating, cramps and oh." James stopped talking as I tried my hardest not to burst into a fit of giggles.

"hand me the damn Advil." Nate harshly spat as I heard the pills jingle in the container. "here baby, take these." I sat up slowly Nate handing me the glass of water. I swallowed the pills smiling towards James "thank you." he returned the smile mumbling a soft you're welcome. I laid back down closing my eyes as Nate's arm wrapped around me again my eyes fluttering closed falling asleep to Nate's lips being pressed to my temple comfortably.

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I woke up slightly confused as I heard the tv in the background, a soccer game I think was on. the room was all dark expect for the tv that lit the room dimly. I slowly pushed myself up as I felt Nate's hand on my leg. "hey baby, are you feeling better?" my head still slightly ached but was now bearable as I nodded falling back down into Nate's chest. my eyes focused in on the tv, a soccer game was on. "I was correct." I mumbled to myself a smile pulling at my lips. "about?" Nate slightly laughed. "I heard a soccer game, there is a soccer game on the tv." I nodded contently as Nate laughed shaking his head kissing my head ever so lightly.

"I'm hungry how long have I been asleep?" I sat up I bet my hair was a complete wreck right now. "about four hours, we can go eat I think Amy ordered Chinese for dinner, not a point in eating lunch." I nodded getting up from the bed as he flicked off the tv. we walked into the kitchen as Amy, Dean and James sat at the table already eating. "your guys food is in the microwave, we didn't know when she would wake up." Amy smiled softly. Nate grunted grabbing the two take out boxes turning to go back into the room when my fingers gripped his arm making him turn to look at me. "into the kitchen." I murmured he sighed nodding.

he set our food down as we both sat at the table. "how are you feeling darling?" Amy questioned towards me. "much better, thank you for the medicine." I smiled she nodded in reply beaming as normal. "how did you like the town Lillie, Nate has always been quite fond of it." Dean spoke glancing between me and Nate. "it's lovely, very nice people." I stifled a laugh as my mind flickered back to Sarah. "yes, the town has always had great manners as a whole." said Dean, James eyes seemed to be glued to his plate.

"you got yourself another tattoo son?" Dean's deep voice spoke Nate looked up almost smirking "yes dad I did, it isn't a new thing you should be use to the idea by now." my hand found it's way to Nate's intwining them. "I am, but you have inked your skin almost entirely, you'll regret it when your older. pointless drawings on your skin just to spite me." the conversation was going down hill quickly. "they aren't pointless to me." Nate's voice was clipped and sharp "when I'm older ill be able to look back at them and remember my life, my tattoos and my life has nothing to do with you dad. I don't have enough cares to do anything that has to do with you, let alone to spite you." Nate got up from the table briskly leaving me to deal with the patching up and apologizing.

"he is a bit cranky, hasn't gotten much sleep lately." I smiled dimly "I apologize for his short fuse." I pause again collecting up his food. "he has always been such an angry child." Dean spoke sadly looking down at his plate "if you'll excuse me." I tilt my head down as they all nod continuing to eat. I walked to our room opening the door as I saw Nate sitting at the edge of the bed flicking through the tv. he looked up at me "the game went off." he smiled but it faded.

I sat the food on the desk by the door as I made my way towards him. "I like your tattoos." I grinned as I stood between his legs. his hands sat on my hips as his head leaned against my stomach. "I like you." the words fell out of his mouth a smirk dominant on his face when he looked up at me "everything about you, the way you blush when I compliment you. or the way you zone out, when your nervous you pick at the holes in your jeans. the way you bite your lip. that laugh, not your quite laugh but that really loud one. that one is my favorite, and your smile makes me weak in the knees. everything you do drives me insane, you're beyond me and my mind." I can't help but have a huge grin on my face that turns into a smile "that one, you're lucky I'm sitting or I'd be on my knees." he winks as my hands fall to his neck he swiftly brings my legs to the side of him flipping us over so he is hovering above me my back laying against the bed. "and the way you kiss, so innocent yet so dirty." his lips capture mine his hands sliding down my body wrapping swiftly around my waist bringing me closer "I could get drunk off a kiss like that." he breathes, I'm speechless as he continues. "don't even get me started on this little body of yours," his finger travels down my spine shivers running up my body. "I could go on for ages. I'm complete infuriated with every little part of you." my breath is gone as he finishes "Lillie, I love you."








authors note

hiiiii how are you all? I'm sorry this chapter took so long, and it isn't even that short. :( but I wanted to tell you amazing people a few things.

I imagine Nate as Zayn Malik, his tattoos and hair, even his british accent. Zayn has that typical bad ass look, so when you think of Nate picture him! :)

I'm thinking of making an Instagram for this story, I could follow you guys back and post pictures of the characters maybe even things used in the chapters, like the dress Nate forced Lillie to buy? the Instagram is @supposedinnocence ! :D I will post a picture most likely after this.

I HOPE YOU GUYS ENJOY THIS CHAPTER !






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