supposed innocence

14

"you're messing my hair up!" I whined swatting away Nate's hands as I tried to move off the bed. "babe!" i continued his hands shaking my hair into my face. I grunted as I pushed out my bottom lip. "you're being mean to me." I finished sounding like a child. he laughed planting a kiss on my pouted lips.

"seriously baby, I expected you to freak out about the whole Adam thing, but you're so calm." he grinned moving my hair out of my face before pulling me towards him. "how?" he questioned watching my face intently. "I know I'm safe, you won't let anything happen to me." I shrugged making a very bright and large smile grow on to his lips. "I love you, I won't let anyone hurt you." he kissed me swiftly pulling. me on top of him. he bit my bottom lip making me gasp as his tongue slid into my mouth. I gripped his t shirt "take it off." I murmured against his lips as I tried to pull it off him. he pulled it off and over his head as my hands ran over his back then up to his neck making his face even closer.

my hips bucked involuntarily as I felt his member pressed hard against me. a sudden rush of bravery and confidence rushed over me as my hand slipped into his sweats palming him gently. "b-baby." he moaned making me even more confident knowing I had a effect on him. "harder baby harder." he groaned as his face pressed into my neck his teeth grazing over it. I slipped my hand into his boxers moving my hand up and down slowly but picked up pace. "Jesus Christ Lillie." he breathed before he gripped my hips pressing me to him my hand left his boxers and he released. moaning and groaning very colorful language while biting on my neck. he let out a finally gasp of air before steadying his breathing back to normally.

"oh god." he breathed out his face still hidden in my neck. a knock on the door made me jump up. "oh god baby you can't do that." he groaned almost moaned I lightly laughed as my hands sat on his hips. another knock came from the door making Nate curse into my neck. "I'm going to clean up, then we are going to sleep send whoever that is away." he stumbled slightly before disappearing into the bathroom.

I got up from the bed going to open the door meeting Dean. "can we talk?" he asked worry and concern laced in his voice. I nodded closing the door behind me following him into the living room. "how is he?" he questioned "he is fine, just a nightmare i had to calm him down." I smiled comfortably at him even though the thought of Nate's nightmares breaks my heart I didn't want to worry him anymore. he nodded a intent gaze fixed on his face. "has he told them what they're about?" I nodded in reply making him sigh deeply. "he is such an angry child, I don't blame him. I was a shit father and now I'm trying to right my mistakes but he wants nothing to do with me I wouldn't either after that night but when he is around you, he is happy. he beams and the love he has for you can be seen from miles away. I can see my old happy Nate when he is around you, you will change him Lillie you already have."

"baby? are you coming to bed?" I turned finding Nate in a pair of sweats his hair messy and damp from his shower. I nodded carefully smiling brightly towards him. I turned to Dean "thank you." I softly spoke "he will come around." I reassured before joining Nate in our room.

"what did he want?" his voice was harsh but his expression wasn't. "just talking, let's go to bed." I smile pulling him down to join me on the plush bed. Nate's arm was wrapped around my waist, my back pressed to his chest as our legs tangled together. "I can't wait to go home." Nate breathed placing a kiss on my neck. "it wasn't horrible." I spoke rubbing his hands that wrapped around my waist. "you're too nice Lillie." he pressed a kiss to my temple "do you want to stay up a little more and talk?" he asked I nodded as I blinked slowly. "you're eyes are drooping, go to sleep baby." I nodded before my eyes shut and I fell asleep.



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"my breath is horrid no!" I covered my face with the bed sheet hoping it would stop Nate from coming closer. "I don't give a fuck, I want to kiss you." the sheet was ripped from my hands and his hazel eyes meet mine a grin plastered on his face. I wiggled and rolled my body quickly out of the bed before running into the bathroom and locking the door behind me. "Lillie!" Nate called from outside the door he jiggled the door handle before speaking "real mature Lillie." he teased as I grabbed the tooth brush shoving tooth paste on it. I brushed my teeth as I ran my fingers through my tangly hair. when I was finished I walked back outside meeting a pouting Nate. "now can I kiss you?" I shook my head as I peeled the sweats from last night off. "oh yes I will." I heard Nate speak before I knew it he had me pinned on the bed in only his t shirt. I squirmed and laughed as he looked down at me. "kiss me and you can get up." I pulled his face down placing a simple kiss to his lips but the second they touched I wanted more. my arms wrapped around his neck pulling his body fully on mine as his circled around my waist filling in any sort of space that was left between us. our tongues where revolved in one another's as the kiss heated. "Breakfast is rea-oh my god!" Amy squealed making me pull away from Nate, his face falling into my neck aimlessly. the door way was empty and opened letting me know Amy fled the scene before she saw anything else. "it looked like we were about to have sex." I whined rubbing my eyes as I realized I didn't have pants on.

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"I'm so sorry I should have knocked." Amy apologized for the second time as we walked into the kitchen. "it's fine honestly." I said the same time Nate snapped "yeah you should have." towards Amy. I swatted his arm glaring at him as he shrugged pulling my seat out for me "is cereal ok?" he asks me I nod in response and then he leaves. "I'm really sorry you had to walk in on what you did. I'm very embarrassed on how it probably looked." I blush towards Amy.

"don't be! honestly it's normal for teenagers these days, I should be the one apologizing." I shake my head as the conversation fades and Nate returns setting a bowl of frosted flakes in front of me. I start eating glancing at Nate who has his phone in his hand and his bottom lip in between his thumb and pointer finger. he was scrolling through his phone intently "not eating?" I ask shoveling another spoon full into my mouth. he shakes his head before setting his hand on my thigh, his eyes never leaving his phone. "this is nice isn't it?" he questions tilting his phone towards me. on the screen was a pandora charm bracelet. "yes. I heard they're awfully expensive." I reply returning back to eating my cereal. "would you ever wear it?" he asks making me look at it once more. it was silver and had a few simple charms on it in the picture. "I would, but I wouldn't if it had all those tacky charms. it would be better left simple with a few charms." I ramble a bit he nods book marking the page on his phone. i finish my cereal getting up to throw it away meeting James at the trash can. "hey!" I smiled "hello Lillie!" he warmly smiles back "sleep well?" I nodded "yourself?"

"great, I'm about to put our bags in the car where are yours?" my eyes went wide I forgot to pack up mine and Nate's stuff. I turn to go running into the room but an arm around my waist stops me. "I already packed baby." Nate's lips pressed to my head as I nodded relaxing a bit. "it's by the couch." he tells James. I watch James struggle with the four suit cases making me nudge Nate. he shakes his head no looking at me "ill reward you." I whisper my finger tracing over his skin right above his boxers. he sprang up nodding as he grabbed two of the suit cases from James hands.

the bit of new confidence I have is coming in handy and I enjoy it.


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(next few days)


"you're birthday is in a few days, 18 years old that's a pretty big deal." my dad tells me from across the table as we eat breakfast. "yes, I don't want anything big just a small dinner maybe." I shrug he nods as the front door opens. "Did you ask her?" my uncle spike's voice echoed through our house. "yes she wants something small, I told you she would." my dad tells him as he enters the kitchen. he kisses my head leaving me with my uncle spike.

"nope, you're turing 18 Lillie bug. I want you to have a nice big party my favorite niece deserves it." I sighed my head falling against my arms on the table. "don't pout." uncle spike spoke as he now sat my me. "you know I don't like parties so why throw one when I will enjoy a nice small dinner more?" I smiled up at him batting my eyes. he sighed "fine, anything for my Lillie bug." he kissed my forehead before I got up and left for school.


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"small parties are nice?" Danielle spoke questionably as I told her and Rebecca about my birthday idea. "I mean they're in your comfort zone and that's all that matters." she smiled Rebecca nodded "personally I love the idea I'm a huge fan of Olive Garden!" her voice was filled with excitement. "speaking of turning 18, have you heard back from that college?"

"not yet, but the counselor said I was pretty much already accepted." a arm wrapped around me making me jump. "accepted for what?" Nate asked kissing my head as he sat down. I waved to Cory and another boy I haven't met before. "chase this is Lillie, Lillie chase." Cory smiled I shook chases hand and he started talking to Rebecca as Danielle started talking to Cory. "accepted to what?" Nate asked making me shift my focus on to him.

"early graduation, I'm hoping on starting college a few months early." the expression on his face was a mix of sad and angry. "why didn't you tell me earlier?" he asked a slight quiver to his voice. "I mean I didn't tell anyone really, It slipped my mind." I shrugged he shook his head as his touch disappeared. "where is the college?" he asked his tone cold "university of Harvard." I whispered my hands shaking slightly. "Cambridge?" he shouted his ancient fully coming out making me jump but I slowly nodded. "Nate, man calm down." Cory tried to talk down Nate but it was useless as his chest rose violently. "she is leaving me!" he shouts standing up from the table. he looks at me his eyes watering "you're just leaving me like I'm nothing!" he quivers before he leaves the cafeteria. "do I go after him?" I croak looking at Cory he shakes his "let him cool off." he smiled reassuringly as I nod.

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my phone ringing woke me up from my short slumber. "hello?" I croaked my voice horse from sleep. I turned on the lamp making me flinch from the bright light. "Lillie? hey it's Cory, Nate is wasted and I don't know what to do he is furious and keeps calling out for you." I looked at the alarm clock it flashed 1am I sighed. "ok I'm coming." I told him before hanging up.

I pulled my Keds on and a hoodie deciding my leggings would presume fine in this situation and time. I pull my hair up into a messy pony tail while I grab my wrist-lit that had my keys attached. slowly I walked out of the house quietly making sure not to wake my parents. I drove to Nate's house walking up the porch and letting myself in. "LET ME FUCKING GO CORY!" I heard his harsh voice echo through the hall when he is angry his accent comes in thick I've noticed "GIVE ME MY FUCKING VODKA CHASE!" I heard a crash making me run down the hall.

my eyes landed on a very livid Nate "you didn't just fucking smash my vodka?" he seethed pressing chase against the wall. "N-Nate!" I shouted he turned to me blinking as if to make sure I was actually there and not a figment of his imagination. "what the hell is she doing here?" his voice was clipped as he stared at me "she is calming you down and stopping you from doing something stupid Nate." Cory spoke "she is leaving me Cory. going off to college not even caring who she hurts because she can't help it she has fucking disorders! she is a fucking broken girl who has all these damn disorders and I fell in love with her and now she is leaving me!" his eye brows where knitted together and his hands began to shake. "let him down, we can talk." I spoke calmly he grunted pressing him harder to the wall "he smashed my vodka!" he shouted again his anger taking over his sadness I nodded coming closer. my hand reached for his "ill get you some more just set chase down." he closed his eyes shaking his head "are you leaving me for him? you're going to make him fall and love with you and then leave him? you're going to completely crush him?" his voice was shaking but his anger was vivid.

"I'm not leaving you Nate." I spoke pulling him closer he tried to fight me "I love you and I won't leave you." he let go of chase before he invaded my body. his head landing into my neck as a sob was released "please don't leave me." he cried my feet where losing friction and slipping on the hard wood floor. "Nate hold me." i breathed hoping he would hear me over his slight break down. my foot was now making my entire body slip "baby hol-" I was swiftly picked up my legs wrapping around him as his arms supported my thighs. I made eye contact with chase and Cory nodding slowly.

'will stay in the guest bedrooms' Cory mouthed to me as I ran my hand through Nate's hair. they left the bedroom making sure not to make a sound to startle or get Nate angry again. "you want to go to sleep?" I asked Nate, he nodded moving us to the bed. he laid on top of me his head nuzzled into my neck. "I love you Nate." I whispered pressing my lips against his ear. I stayed up rubbing his back up and down with my fingers until he fell asleep, even afterwards. I saw the sun peering up and finally accepted that I wasn't going to sleep. I slipped from underneath Nate's body making sure he didn't wake up.

I walked down the hall maybe I should cook the boys some breakfast. I cooked scrambled eggs, toast and bacon. it was now 9am, I set it all out on plates. "Goodmorning Lillie!" I screamed at the sudden voice my hand pressed against my forehead. "good god chase, I almost had a heart attack!" I breathed he apologized as Cory walked in. "you cooked? silly Lillie!" he picked me in hug spinning me around. "put me down Cory!" I laughed he finally sat me down back on to the floor. "I'm going to call my dad and tell him where I am, I'll be right back." he nodded as I walked out to the back porch.

I was ending the call to my dad when I heard shouting. I quickly end the call running into the house to find Nate yelling frantically. "Nate!" I shouted the scene reminded me awfully of last nights. his eyes fixed on to mine. "baby." he breathed pulling me into his body. "I thought you left me again when I didn't find you in bed this morning." he peppered my face with kisses as I slowly giggled. "can we talk?" I whispered he nodded pulling me back out to the porch. "I know you're upset about my planes, so I'll explain them to you. early graduation has always been on my mind, my parents have always wanted me to do it I've always wanted to do it, I've worked my entire life to go to Harvard. just because I'm going to Harvard doesn't mean I'm leaving you in anyway. I'm not a type of person to look ahead, I'm more of a one step of a time person. but all I know is I want you to be with me every step of the way." my hand cupped his face "please don't yell or get angry." I whispered my hand falling to my lap.

"I'm sorry for getting so angry, I was just so upset that you where graduating and just being the amazing person you are. you're going to do so much with your life and I don't want to get in the way of that, but you going off to college will open up so many more doors for you and you will forget about me." my mind jumbled from his words never could I ever forget Nate. "come with me then!" the words fell from my mouth.

"what?" his face was confused almost if he didn't believe me "you want me to come with you?" he stammered I nodded "if I get accepted my parents are planning on buying me an apartment close to campus, well me and my mom are my dad thinks it isn't safe who knows if he will even let me go to college but you could live with me and they have smaller university's you could go too if you want to I meant sorry I'm talking too much I'm sorry." his hands held my face bringing it closer to his "I would love that." he kissed me swiftly "I love you baby." he kissed me again.


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"DAD! DAD!" I screamed running up the stairs "MOM DAD MOM DAD!" I rushed into the house the envelope held tightly to my chest. I ran to the kitchen finding my parents "Lillie, darling are you ok?" I nodded quickly showing them the envelope. "open it open it!" they cheered I sighed my finger sliding to open the seal.

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I walked up the stairs of Nate's porch entering the house to find Nate on his couch playing some sort of video game. "hey babe!" he called out his eyes never leaving the screen. "hi!" I called back as I removed my shoes and coat setting them on the floor by the door along with my bag. I jumped on to the couch next to him watching as he continued to fiddle with the game controller. "so I got a letter from Harvard." I slowly spoke the controller hit the ground making me jump. "what did it say?" he turned to face me his eyes searching my face.

"I got in." I smiled "you got in! baby! you got in!" Nate cheered while picking me up and spinning me around. "oh my god you did it! I'm so proud of you Lillie!" he sat me down back on my feet as quickly he pressed his lips to mine several times. "so that means we have a month or so to find a apartment, if you still want to move there with me."

"of course I do, I have set up appointments to see the apartments we book marked." he paused pressing a kiss to my forehead "I have some connections so I already have a job at a gym with some of my old pals." I nodded everything was falling into place. somehow I knew it was too good to be true, too be this easy.

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Nate's hand pressed to my thigh "just a few more baby, then we can go back to the hotel and rest I promise." he whispered pressing a kiss to my temple. we have been looking at apartments all day with our real estate agent and to say it was exhausting would be an understatement. "this one is the priciest, but Nate here thought it was too perfect to pass up." Tammy told me as she drove down the street. I sighed nodding my head rubbing my temples lightly. the car came to a stop and me and Nate stepped out.

my mouth fell opened the exterior was a beautiful rustic looking brick, it held a vintage look while still being modern. the side walk was lined with dozens of trees that would be full of leaves if it wasn't winter. "wow" I hummed to myself as Nate's hand sat on the small of my back leading me up to the lobby of the apartment complex. "hello Tammy!" the secretary at the front desk smiled at us brightly. "I hope you two love the apartments, they are always so lovely for new couples." I nodded timidly before walking into the elevator.

we arrived at the apartment and slowly walked in. it was breath taking, it had the same rustic and vintage look the exterior had but more modern looks with the furniture and appliances. "it's has a balcony!" I cheered like a child running towards the sliding glass doors. "oh my gosh! there are so many book shelves!" I couldn't help but let my excitement and adoration for this apartment seep out. then the reality hit me, "how much over my price range?" I questioned slowly "about 2,000" my eyes went wide shaking my head "a month?? I can't do that, I don't make that much money. it's lovely really but no." my eyes where starting to water my taste doesn't match my budget and I was going to have to get use to it. "we'll take it." I heard Nate say to Tammy making me whip around.

"Nate I don't have that sort of-" he cut me off by bringing my lips to his. "I'm going to be living here too baby, how about I pay the bills and you buy groceries." he smiled I shook my head "that's way too much Nate, and uneven." he kissed me again "how about now?" I shook my head going to talk but his lips stopped me. "I'm going to keep kissing you until you agree, I have more than enough money remember. we can do this baby."

I sighed looking around I was already in love with this apartment, the two bedrooms where beyond me in beautifulness and the bathrooms where gorgeous. "fine. but I buy groceries promise?" I smiled Nate picked me up swiftly "promise."








AUTHORS NOTE

hello guys! I'm sorry it took longer than I told you guys it would, but I have a lot of finals to study for due to it being the last two weeks before Christmas break but here it is I hope you enjoy it! CHAPTER 14!


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