Lost And Not Found...

My breaking point

As I raced home to get to my father I couldn't help but think about Luke. He made me feel different. I had never felt this way before and I loved the feeling of someone being interested in me. I was on a Luke high. Luke was this guy from around the way he was never seen with anyone maybe he's a loner. He was always so mysterious I guess that's what attracted me to him.. I wanted to know his story and possibly be apart of it.

While getting off the bus on 79 and cottage I was overwhelmed with fear. I hated walking in my building their was always a group of broke ass niggas hanging out right in front. It still amazes me how they don't hear my screams I guess after a while I stopped looking for Superman.

I made it to my floor and slowly walked down the hall. I heard nothing I also didn't see my fathers car so maybe I was safe for now. My phone began to ring just as I entered what seem to be an empty house. It was Skylar calling.

"Hey Skylar are you okay you ran out pretty fast"

"Yea I'm good my mom was texting me asking who I was with I told her my best friend Ocean and after that the calls came rolling in and she made me come home"

"Damn girl your mom can be such a fucking leech she sucks the fun out of everything"

Like I was one to really talk.
I heard someone in the back ground yelling telling Skylar to end our phone conversation and just like that the phone went cold.
"What was that all about?"
And then my phone rang again damn my shit was doing a number today. It was Luke!!!! I wonder what he wants.

"Hey Luke"

"Hey Beautiful. Did you make it home safe?"

"So far so good"

"I want you come over later. I honestly can't stop thinking about you."

"I haven't stopped thinking about you either Luke but I don't think it's a good idea that I come over"

"Why not? I'm not trying to have sex with you baby girl. I respect you and your mind and thats why I want your company. I just want to talk"

"Since you put it that way I'll think about it text me your address and I'll hit you up later okay"

"Okay Ocean hopefully I'll get to spend more time with you"
" Don't worry you will"
And just like that it was then end of our conversation. My father still was no where in sight but something didn't feel right. I changed my clothes and relaxed on the couch. I heard something strange and before I could turn around I was being pulled by my hair over the couch and down the hall to my father's room. Where the fuck did he just come from?!?!?

"So you out here being a hoe now right?! Look Madison how many times do I have to tell you you don't need friends you dont need no one else but me!"

All of a sudden I grew the biggest balls in the world.

" Look bitch my name isnt Madison I'm not your woman I'm your daughter the fuck is wrong with you!!!"
He paused and looked at me in shock.

"Looks like I need to knock that new found confidence out of you."

He walked out the room and come back with a bucket full of cold ice water and a extension cord. And before I knew it he poured the water on me and I was being beat with the cord. I seen the whips getting worse and worse but he continued.

"God help me please!"
I yelled.

My skin began to burst open and I felt like my body was on fire, and still he kept going. After a few more seconds everything with black.

I woke up at 1am in my bed room and not only was I still bleeding but my face felt really sticky. I stumbled to the bathroom cut on the light and couldn't believe what I saw their was semen all over my face. I couldn't even recognize myself. for the first time in my life I felt my emotions. I always blocked everything out but this time was different. For the first time I felt rage. I felt sorry for myself, and felt my soul darken more more it was like another person had come in and Ocean was gone.

I began to clean myself off slowly. I was in so much pain. The soft touch of my towel made tears drop from eyes, but I had to push myself to get it done. Once I finished I went to my room and packed a bag and put clothes on with the last ounce of strength in me. I looked around my ugly world and couldn't stand the sight of it anymore. I quietly walked to the door with my bag in hand and just as I was about to turn the knob I made a promise to myself.

"The next time I see Austin will be when he takes his last breath".

And with that being said I opened the door and ran like a bat out of hell. Where I was going I wasn't sure but I knew I wasn't coming back here.