Meant To Be

Chapter 17

Jonghyun left the next morning. And I went to work as usual. I walked down the hall on my lunch my mind lost in thoughts. " Hey" someone pulled my arm. " Oh hi " I smiled at GD. " What are you thinking about?" He asked while checking his phone. " Nothing really" I lied. " Well it's not nothing , your face shows somethings wrong" he worried. " I'm just feeling a bit sick" I lied again. " Had a few too many drinks?" He laughed at me. " I don't drink remember" I said. " Oh yea!" He nodded his head then checked his phone again " Listen I have to go but I'll see you later" he took a step back. " Yea, yea" I waved at him as he walked away. After lunch I was leaving the building when Seungri stopped me. " Where were you last night" He asked. " What do you mean" I answered. " You went to get some food and then no one saw you after that" he was looking at me. " I was not feeling well so I went for a walk" I lied to him too. " You were gonna all night I waited for you at your place after everyone had left" he told me. " I left around 4:30 in the morning" he added. " I'm sorry" is all could say. " It's alright, you wanna stay at my place tonight?" Seungri asked me sweetly. " Maybe some other time" I said. " Oh" he said under his breath. " I'm really sorry, but I have to go " I said good bye to him and went home. When I went home Eva had her stuff packed " Where are you going" I asked her. " My sister brought a house and asked me to move in with her" she said." You can give my room out to someone" she added. The house was mine but I mean it was also hers but I guess not. " Are you leaving now" I asked. " In the morning" she answered. " Well ok" I said. " Is Minho helping you" I said. " Yea, he'll come in the morning" she moved her stuff to the living room. " I'm going to sleep now, I'll see you in the morning " she said as she walked up the stairs. I went to the kitchen got some water then went to my room to. The next morning the noise woke me up. I opened my door " Morning" Minho said as he walked pass my room with some boxes and Eva followed. I was about to close the door " Your up early" Jonghyun's voice stopped me. " Yea" I nodded. He looked around then leaned in " It was nothing , we didn't do anything so don't worry" he whispered. " Your good" he smiled and walked down the stairs. I washed up and went to help them. Minho and Eva picked the stuff from the living room and moved it to the car. Me and Jonghyun got the rest of the stuff from her room. " How was work" he asked. " Good" I looked down. " Are you going to give me one word answers from now on" he smiled at me, even thought I didn't see it I know he did. " No" I answered then laughed at knowing I had done it again. " Like I said you didn't do anything wrong" he said.
After Eva had moved out, the house was mine and I couldn't find anyone to give the room to. It has been a week and a half. I sat next to the window on a Friday night at 1 in the morning. It was raining and I was hungry. I hadn't gonna food shopping because I was so busy with work and all. I got a glass of milk and there were no cookies well Fuck I said to myself. Milk it is I said looking at the glass of milk in my hands and went back to sitting next to the window. after a bit my door bell rang. Who could that be at this time I thought . Upon opening the door I saw Jonghyun standing there with food in his hands. He came in and sat next to the window. " Really?" I asked. " What? You don't want it" he said opening the food. I just went and sat next to him " I do" I smiled. It was raining cats and dogs. " Why are you smiling like an idiot?" I said after seeing him smile at nothing a few times. " The Rain, it brought back a very good memory" he answered me. " What is it" I asked. " I can't say" he smiled at me. " Why not" wanting to know. " Just because" he looked out the window. " Just say it" I kinda yelled at him. " Hey! Stop yelling at me and no " he yelled back at me. " You want to go out" he asked. I laughed " Yea lets go" both of us stood up. It was windy but it was a lot of fun. "You wanna dance with me" Jonghyun gave me his hand. I took his hand. We danced around for a bit " Wish we had some music". I laughed because he started to sing. " What are you laughing at" he pulled me closer. " I thought you said I had the best voice" he added. " It's cute, I'm not laughing at you. I'm laughing because of you" I smiled. " Got it" he said and sang. We went in and changed , he went home.

I was hanging  out with Seungri and the others at my place. I was so tried my eyes couldn't stay open. But I didn't want to be rude so I sat next to Seungri listening to the guys talk. GD was laughing at TOP for something and Taeyang was on his phone but also listening and laughing at TOP with GD. Daesung was on TOPs side and telling GD and Taeyang to stop laughing. I closed my eyes for a second.
It's sunny and Im in a field with red rose around me and a big Oak tree a bit far from me well I think it's an Oak tree. The roses smelled pretty. I looked around and stayed to walk. I picked few roses and smelled them. A smell caught my attention, it was more beautiful then the smell of the roses. I looked to my left and right but didn't see anything but roses as far as the eye could see. I closed my eyes and smelled the beautiful scent. It felt homely in a way. I opened my eyes, a smile come on my lips as I saw Jonghyun standing in front of me with a beautiful smile and a black suit. " Where are we?" I asked him. " Does it matter" he answered me. " No" I smiled at him. " Nice nah?" I said looking around." I know you love stuff like this" he said. " I wish I could dance with you in the rain again" I said. " We can" he told me . " It's not raining " I looked up at the Sun. " Do you want it to rain?" He asked. " Yea" I answered. Before I knew it was cloudy and raining with a soft wind. " See" he smiled and I gave him my hand this time. " Can you sing " I asked. He stayed to sing to me. One of his hand was on my wrist and the other was in my right hand. I took both of his hands and placed them on my wrist and wrapped my arms around his neck and rested my head on his left shoulder and closed my eyes."I think I'm falling in love with you" I whispered to him but he didn't answer. " Jonghyun?" I opened my eyes. He was gonna. " Jonghyun!" I yelled. The rain stopped. The wind got wild, the roses were dead. " Jonghyun" I stayed to run " Jonghyun" I called out to him.
" Hey wake up Lilly" I opened my eyes. BigBang members were standing around me. " It was just a nightmare" GD said to me. " Why are you crying" TOP asked me. " What happened?" Taeyang asked. " I have to go" I stood up putting my shoes on. " Where are you going it's 2 in the morning" Seungri said. " I need air" I ran out the door.
I didn't stop running until I was infront of Jonghyuns door. I rang the bell a few times. " Jonghyun" I yelled and rang the bell again. After 5 minutes he opened his door, his eyes half open. I jumped into his arms. " What's wrong?" He said. I didn't answer. " Did Seungri say something? Tell me what's wrong?" He asked me. " I had a really bad nightmare, can I sleep here with you?" I asked him. " Really? You ran here because of that?" He laughed but stopped when he saw my face.
Jonghyuns POV
I laughed but stopped when I saw her looking at me. She was sacred and looked like she had cried " Yea, yea sure" I said. " You can sleep in my room, I'll take the couch" I said. " Can you sleep with me in the room too" she asked. " You sure?" I asked " yes" she answered me.
I laid down next to her. She was laying there looking at me. " What was the nightmare about?" I asked " You" she told me. " Me?" I wondered. " It was weird" she said. " Whatever it was...." She cut me off " I think I'm in love with you" she shocked me. I didn't know what to say. " Your not , trust me" I said. " I'm so scared because I know that I really have fallen for you " she looked down at her hand then at me. " Come here" I pulled her into a hug. I could hear her heart beating fast like I was her first crush and love. She hugged me tightly. " Jonghyun" I heard her say. " Yea" I whispered. " Do you not Lo.." She stopped. She didn't want to know my answer because she didn't want to hear a no."Jonghyun" she said again and " Yea" I answered her again. " I love you" she finally said it."I know" I said to her. she moved back to look at my face. I took her into my arms until she fell a sleep.
She keeps getting hurt yet she always ends up here, with me. I need to do something to keeps her from getting hurt again. Should have stayed away from her. I should have told her that it won't work. I need to find a way to keep my self away from her so she doesn't get hurt like before.