Toby's POV
We have been on the road for 3 hours and I can't wait to get there. I can't wait to see Spencer smiling,I can't wait to see how the water will splash against her perfect white skin,I can't wait to see her being finally happy. On our way,we listened to music and talked about what we were going to do.
I pulled in the hotel's parking place. The hotel was big,white and nice. When we got in the room,Spencer was thrilled.
"I can't wait to go to the beach!" she said smiling.
"Me too." I kissed her.
We put our stuff in their place and started to get ready for a little bath at 6 PM. Spencer was wearing a cute black bikini,in contrast with her white soft skin. Her hair was pulled up in a messy bun and she wore no make-up. She is so beautiful. I took her hand,our stuff for the beach and went there.
We placed our towels and suncreams and sunglasses down and got in the water. The sun was still shinning and it was warm outside.
"You won't catch me!" Spencer shouted and started to swim away from me.
"Good joke,but you're not Emily!" I laughed and started to swim towards her. I quickly reached her and grabbed her arm. I turned her around and her wet hair was stamped against her forhead. She was smiling and wrapping her arms around me. Finally. A sincere smile. I kissed her again and again and we both swam back to the shore. We laid on the towels and tanned a little. At 8 PM,it was getting a little cold so we decided to go back to the hotel. We took a shower and prepared to go downstairs for the dinner. I put on a white plain shirt and black jeans with black Converse and Spencer wore a cream shirt and a black skirt with black flats. She had her natural curls and she had a little bit of gloss on her lips. I took her hand and we went to dinner.
After dinner,which was delicious by the way,we went to the bar and bought a glass of wine. We got back in the room and we laid on the bed drinking red wine. Her head was placed on my chest and I was playing with her hair. I kissed her head,turned off the lights and told each other goodnight. I closed my eyes and immediately fell asleep.
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*the last day in LA*
Spencer's POV
It hurts. It hurts so much. I didn't even want to go to LA. I wanted to stay home and cry and think of the mistakes in my life. I still didn't get over my kidnapp and Toby thinks I'm happy. If he only knew,if he only knew that I came here just not to upset him. I try so hard to smile,I'm doing my best. I'm trying to act like I'm okay,but I'm actually not. I can't wait to get home and lay in my bed,with my tissues next to me. I guess that's just how my life it's supposed to be. But Toby doesn't need to know that. People really think I am over Alison,right? Like what,it's been 4 months and they just expect me to be happy again? And wait,4 months? How did time pass by so fast? I am now laying on the bathroom floor in the hotel with the door locked. Toby is out doing shopping and I didn't want to come. So here I am,crying to myself,pulling my hair,slapping myself and cutting myself for the wreck and disapointment that I have become. I never thought I would be the girl who cuts,the girl who cries herself to sleep,the girl who wishes everything would just end someday. I thought I would have the perfect life: perfect friends,perfect grades,perfect job,perfect family. I am barely holding on. I am trying so hard to keep my A's at school. And speaking of A,I wonder who this "-A" is. I haven't heard about him/her/it since I got to LA. I hope -A will stop harrasing the people I love. I just want to rewind everything. I'm tired of living and it gets harder everyday. I stood up,thinking that Toby would be here soon. I pulled my sleeves down,hid the razors and cleaned the blood in the bathroom. I put on a smile,combed my hair and got out of the bathroom. When I got in the bedroom,Toby was already there,on the bed, smiling.
"Hey baby" he said and kissed me softly on the lips.
"Hey" I kissed him back and hugged him tight.
"Are you okay?"
"Yeah,of course,I'm just sad that we are going home tomorrow."
"Me too.. But if you want,I could pay extra and stay here for one more week."
"No,no! It's okay,really. I don't want you to spend your money on me."
"But it's worth it,right? I mean,you are happy now." he said and kissed me again.
"Yeah. Yeah,I'm happy." I told him the biggest lie ever. Me? Happy? Ha,never again. I yawned and got in the bed,tired of crying so much. It was going to be a long way back home.
*next morning*
Spencer's POV
We were almost getting home and I couldn't wait. I wanted to lock myself in the room and cry and cry and cry. That's what I'm best at,crying. I was snapped out of my thoughts when Toby pulled in front of my house. He helped me with the luggages and then he kissed me and left. Poor Toby,he does so much for me and thinks I'm happy,when I'm not. But if him knowing that I am happy makes him happy,then I am happy that I make him happy. Wait,what did I just say? Anyways,no time for my stupidity. I locked all the doors and windows,got in my bedroom and started to cry and cut again. How I love my life.
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I guess you guys didn't expect Spencer not to enjoy the trip,right? Well I didn't either lol. So yeah,keep reading,voting and commenting. I love you guys! <3
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A Spoby Story: I'm Safe Now
FanfictionAfter Alison's death,Spencer couldn't take it anymore and had a mental breakdown which led her to depression. Her life is boring and she feels like nothing matters anymore. Until she meets Toby.
