A Few Shades Lighter

Hope

E'Ianas Pov

I sat and stared at august as he did the same to me .It was like this undeniable connection that we must have both felt .I have never had this before I have one friend and at the moment she is in new York and she have absolutely no idea what goes on with me but I do know she is in a similar situation regarding school.I have never had a crush or a boyfriend .I have never had my first kiss nor have I ever had sex.In fact the closes I have ever been to a guy was that very moment august saved me a week ago .

Since the incident I have offically moved in with Aug and mama shelia .It has been refreshing and I feel what just may be happiness slip within my body .I feel so at home and actually loved .Mama says we will be moving here soon luckly Aug won't be missing to much seeing as he just started at our school

Two days ago my mother tried to reach out to me .With hope in my heart I thought that it was to apologize for the last 19 years .But low and behold it was to ask me for 700 dollars that she currently owes her dealer .I'd love to meet the assholr who continues to feed her addiction .

I'm honestly just hoping that everything will fall into place. I hope I can be completely happy .I hope to be able to sleep fully at night without waking up scared to death .I hope yo be able to smile and mean it .T not have to hide all the time .Not to be beat on and lied to and hurt inside out .I hope to love and be loved but most of all I hope to find who I truly am .

There is something in this chapter that will be answered next chapter so read this one carefully and tune in for next because secrets will be revealed don't miss it !