A Few Shades Lighter

The truh

August Pov

It has been two weeks since we all seen that letter that was left by the door .After reading it we all stood in complete silence taking everything in .For a while now I been on cloud nine thinking I finally got E and got her to open up to me and that we were going to be together .And this whole month I really messed with someone else .I can't understand how this happened .Yes I was drunk but I wasn't so drunk that I didn't realize it was her I mean the girl looked just like her .It was creepy to think I was in someone the way I was her thinking that it was the one I was falling for but wasn't .I'm not sure what I have to do now .

E won't speak to me she just sits and looks out of the window I guess thinking about everything that has happened I spend most my days in my room sulking and ma spends most of hers trying to get us to talk . I can't believe it was someone walking around pregnant with my first child and she took it upon herself to kill him or her .I can't help but be a little her

"August"E said knocking me out my thoughts and quickly turning my attention to her .

"Yea BabyGirl what's up you ight" I softly spoke ....her eyes became glossy as she walked into my arms and I laid her down to hold her . I new she wasn't mad just upset like I was and even mama .

"I'm sorry whoever she was killed your baby ....I'd never wish that on anyone .I have felt with a lot in life and I know when someone has set out to purposely hurt me and I know those were not your intentions .....but I also feel really guilty Aug......a child is a blessing I know and i hate to say it but I am actually glad she .....you know ...because ....I really love you I love everything about you and if anyone is going to have your child whether it be now or planned in the future I would love for it to be me ....your everything to me Ant .."

I was shocked as she spoke I looked down and softly kissed her lips "I love you more baby ...your mine now and forever and your right I am a little hurt but I do want you to be the first to give me a child.

She smiled at me before laying on my chest and drifting off to sleep ..All of this has me thinking about the future and how I don't want to be out here wandering aimlessly not knowing what I want to do yes I'm young but far from dumb a nigga know what he wants and that's E .But I also know what I have to do to get us right .I think its time for me to pay a visit to my plug .Pay what I owe and get the fuck out the game .If it is one thing I learned its that .The streets will either have you in jail or a body bag and as persistent he is L will not have me in either .Time for me to really get right and first things first Lawrence will be seeing me very soon

Since I got no replies on my authors note I decided not to use those two chapters I had to delete due to more messages .The story is going to go a little differently then I planned and possible a little shorter .Hope y'all.enjoy