A Few Shades Lighter

mama

E's Pov

It's mothers day and I have tried my best not to show how hurt I am. It's holidays like this when I realized how shitty my parents have always been. There is something deep inside of me that's telling me something isn't right with them or never has been

But if there us one thing that I can honestly say it's that augs family has taken me in and treated me as one of there own when they did not have to. And I will decree love them for that. Especially mama Shelia she has been there for me my whole life I can say that that is my mother no doubt and I will tell anyone that on any given day she raised me. 

As was brought out of my thoughts as chay came in and wiped my tears and told me she loved me I didn't even realize I had been crying it is Amazing what such simple thoughts can do to you.  After getting ready for family time. I grabbed my note book I looked in the mirror to see my eyes were blood shot I shook it off and headed down stairs.

I stood at the doorway and watched ad the girls played and they guys goofed off as mama and cha watched laughing.

I made my way to the middle of the room and began to speak gaining everyone's attention "Hey y'all I know we are about to start the movie and spend the day with ma but I just wanted to share something I wrote for you mama Shelia it has taken me alot to do this and to right this but I need to do it. First I want to Arizonans thank you for raising me as your own and bringing me into your home and treating me as your own you have truly made me the woman I am today and I can't thank you enough you are a true blessing and I swear when I make it I'm going to give you the world and more all of y'all in fact y'all meek so much to me and I love all of you with all of my heart again mama thank you and I hope you enjoy this " I said as I watched tears fall from everyone's else especially mama sheila she smiled and told me she loved me as I made my way over to the piano " I let the music flow within me as I began to sing

[Verse 1]
I would never let a tear fall from your eyes, no, no no
Cause everything you are to me, ohh I could never let you hurt inside
You mean so much, and I'm so thankful that you're in my life
And I appreciate your love and all your sacrifice
Without you by my side, I never could survive
I wouldn't be the woman standin' here before your eyes

[Pre-Chorus]
You taught me strength and you gave me guidance
Whenever faith was lost, you were there to find it
And all because a mother's love is unconditional
With all my heart and all my soul, I wanna let you know

[Chorus]
That I thank you, and I love you
And I would never place anyone above you
Said I thank you, and I love you
And I will never ever place no one above you

You have given me life, and I just want you to know
That you're the reason I'm here today
I will never let go to everything that we share
And nothing can compare
I thank you, I thank you, I thank you, here's what I'm sayin'

[Verse 2]
See, I've been blessed to be raised by a woman so strong
Cause even when I did things wrong
You would show me just the way that I should carry on
You kept me safe, and you protected me with all you had
And any time I was in need you gave your very last
Without you by my side, I never could survive
I wouldn't be the woman standing here before your eyes

[Pre Chorus]
You taught me strength and, you gave me guidance
Whenever faith was lost, you were there to find it
And all because a mother's love is unconditional
With all my heart, and all my soul, I wanna let you know

[Chorus]
That I thank you, and I love you
And I would never place anyone above you
Said I thank you, and I love you
And I will never ever place no one above you

You have given me life, and I just want you to know
That you're the reason I'm here today
I will never let go to everything that we share
And nothing can compare
I thank you, I thank you, I thank you, here's what I'm sayin'

[Bridge]
I remember wakin' up early monday morning
With my new dress, and my new shoes, with the buckles on em
And you would kiss my face, and say "I love you babe"
And you would be right there to take all of my fear away
And when he broke my heart, you said it was hist lost
And not to think about, "you're better off without him"
Remember when they said that I was never gonna make it
You said "it's yours, and all you gotta do is go and take it"

[Chorus]
I thank you, and I love you
And I would never place any above you
Said I thank you, and I love you
And I will never ever place no one above you

See, you have given me life, and I just want you to know
That you're the reason I'm here today
I will never let go to everything that we share
And nothing can compare
I thank you, I thank you, I thank you, here's what I'm sayin'

I thank you, and I love you
And I would never ever place anyone above you
Said I thank you, and I love you
And I will never ever place no one above you

See, you have given me life, and I just want you to know
That you're the reason I'm here today
I will never let go to everything that we share
And nothing can compare
I thank you, I thank you, I thank you, here's what I'm sayin' yeah, yeah yeah yeah yeah .

I broke down as I turned around to see mama standing before me with open arms she wispered sweet nothings into my ear as I looked up to see everyone else crying there eyes out. Even the guys. I'm guessing the feeling was mutual for everyone in the room and I felt nothing but love and peace being in the room with my true family.

"I love you mama happy mothers day "