Memoir Of An Insane

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Coraline patted the couch next to her and waited for me to sit down.

The hospital was quiet today. Like, a cloud was blocking all the sound that once was there. It was because of the recent suicide. They all tried to cover up what was happening but people talk. So, one by one, everyone knew that Simon jumped off the roof.

I thought Coraline was going to talk to me about the incident. I coughed and leaned back on the beige couch.

''I heard about Simon. It wasn't like we hadn't saw it coming. He was talking about the civil war all week.''

Coraline smiled, ''That is not what I wanted to talk about Kayla.'' She opened her folder and her eyes flickered through the page.

''Then why am I here? Its not like I confiscated a bottle of bleach.'' I smirked, looking up to the ceiling.

''Oooh, sarcasm..'' she took a deep breath and continued, ''I didn't see you when Alicia was leaving the other day, and I was wondering why weren't you there? I thought you had become friends with her. ''

''I had things to do.'' I snapped. Standing up abruptly, I started pacing in the room.

''Like what? Counting the tiles in your room? Making small talk with Bernie?'' she looked at me, knowingly, that i wasn't the type of person who did things.

''YES! It was wild in the art room! We drew birds with moustaches! How could have I missed THAT!?'' I threw my hands in the air and yelled at her.

''Stop being sarcastic. All you do is be sarcastic and avoid talking about how you feel. You know I can't say you're okay to leave until you open up to me.''

I threw her file to the floor in frustration, and got out of the room. I ran until I was in my room. I slammed the door, which I wasn't supposed to do at all, and quickly, pushed my bed in front of the door.

Nurses banged my door and sweet talked to get me to open it. I slid down to the floor, sat on the cold tiles and counted until they burst open the door.

Tears were streaming down my face. My hands were shaking.

and i couldn't breathe.