The Ex's At War

Chapter 34 - Clouds of Confusion

Kindly ignore the typos and grammatical errors didnt quite have time to proof read

The morning was so different yet so expected. Manik wasn't there, I was alone on the bed looking around blankly. My very home gave me an alienated feel. It was such a lonely feeling but what was I expecting after our fight the day before. He had clearly said he didn't need me anymore, his repulsive body language meant every word of it. I was a commodity to him whose shell life was over or may be an unwanted product which he had tagged along for old time sake. I felt so useless and redundant. I was so let down with myself for being such a mess. He wasn't back home and I didn't even bother to call him up and ask where was he? Was he fine? I had slept peacefully after my crying marathon without bothering about him. So that should serve me right. Why should he care about me when I didn't.

I slithered down the bed to look for him and found the Daddy-daughter in the living room completely engrossed in each others company. Their giggles filled the living room's ambience with chirpiness. Manini had made him sit in between a puddle of her toys and Manik enacted them one by one, he became the tiger, the bear, the monkey one by one and Manini gurgled with happiness and it reflected on her Daddy's face as well. I had missed that child like laugh of his, that innocence and simplicity that surmounted him whenever he was around this tiny being. They were happy in a world of their own, a world that probably had no place for me and somewhere somehow I didn't like it.

I could be called selfish when I said that but it was true. Manik's laugh said he didn't miss anything. He was happy completely happy just with his daughter. I had no place in between the two. The emptiness that I felt wasn't there in him and that broke my heart into a million pieces. I hated myself for the fact that my life was nothing without him. Every inch of my existence depended on him for being happy or sad. I having given him such an upper hand over me that whatever he did it mattered to me and what did he do, exploited it in every way he wanted. All his promises seemed so fake and meaningless now. I felt so hollow from within standing there alone waiting for a single glance from him but hr didn't turn around.

I had shed enough tears for this man but not anymore. If he thought he could conveniently play around with my emotions then he is wrong because I wont allow him to. I wiped the millionth drop of tear that had his name written on them mid way and went back to my room.

It was indeed a new morning and I had to start like one.

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"Princess don't you think its too late...your Mommy doesn't sleep this much", Manik got irked the thought of it.

"Mommy ish angly on you..so shee ish shleeping mol", Manini deduced in her own innocent way unmindfully. Her focus was in her bunny bear and to make her talk again.

Manik picked her up and brought her to his lap, "Baby do you think I should say sorry to your Mommy ...I mean technically it was her fault...hadn't she thought of that stupid separation plan I would have never lost it on her to begin with", he went on in a flow as if he was talking to a grown up and expert relationship counsellor and Manini looked at his face with wide eyes not getting half the things he spoke.

"Daddy ale you schaled?", she asked out of the blue which somewhat confused Manik, "Mommy shaid Kaddu clies when shee ish schaled, Mommy schleams when shee ish schaled and Daddy gets angry when he ish schaled....Ale you schaled Daddy?", Manini finished her baby speech and Manik gawked at her dumbstruck. She exactly remembered how I had made her understand when she saw the angry hulk Manik for the first time. For her an angry Daddy meant a scared Daddy which was true by the way. Manik went mad with rage whenever he sensed he would lose us or had to leave us.