Plus Sized Beauty.

twelve

It almost became a dream to be so happy and to feel so loved by the one person in my life who could save me. Because getting bullied all through my life for not being as thin as the girls around me has always had a dark effect one, one that I've always tried my hardest to push to the back of my head but it's hard when you're reminded on the daily just how much you don't fit in. But Liam, he definitely made me forget all the hate that I felt towards myself, he was light. As we became more and more inseparable, I think it was evident to us two that we had found our soulmate in each other.

School kept on being the punishment of our life, but we both kept at it and both earned a spot on the Honor list, Liam and I spent whatever time we could with each other, now that Football he had afternoons free. Niall would come with us to my house where we would just lounge, one calm but chilly afternoon Niall came into the kitchen where I was preparing a quick lunch that consisted of a panini sandwich which was Niall favorite and a chicken and lettuce tossed salad. As I'm making sure that the panini doesn't toast too much on the panini toaster, Niall parks himself on the stool in front of me across the marble island, "What's up N?" and I glance up to his sea blue eyes and notice some sort of apprehension and he quickly looks away from my inquiring eyes, "I wanted to ask you something, but I know it's not really my place, but he's my best friend, my brother really. And I've seen him get hurt so much by girls who just wanted him for the status jump or the money. I... don't want to question you, but I do want to know that you're really into him. Because let me tell you... he's so in love with you. It's a different Liam than the one from five months ago Juls, and it's because of you." And as he finishes his question his cheeks flare up in a baby rose color that's so 'Niall', and I stay quiet while I place the third and final panini on the plate, and turn off the electric stove, I look up and make direct eye contact, "You really do care for him, huh?" and he just gives me a slight baby nod in response. "Okay. Yes, the answer is yes. He's my entire world Niall, he's the smile I wake up to every morning because I know that I'll see him in a couple of hours at school, and he makes me to unbelievably happy it's actually scary because and guy like him is supposed to like a big girl like me Niall! Its not how it goes, and I'm simply terrified that it's all going to get taken from me. He's my light." And when I break eye contact with Niall I run my fingers under my eyes to clean up the tears that had escaped. Niall just looks at me for a minute before his giving me a huge Cheshire cat grin. And I instantly became aware of how much Niall truly cared for Liam, how much of a brotherhood they had formed; it made me so happy.

As fall began to settle in and make all the leaves go brown on the tree in my backyard I was so excited because I love the holidays! My mom always decorated the house and it all just brings back so many good memories, my mom and dad sitting by the fire place as I opened Christmas gifts or just sitting at the dinner table eating leftovers from all the cooking that my Abuelita did for us when she comes to visit. And even when Mom was really sick, we still made the effort to celebrate it as we always did, almost like we knew it was the last one we would celebrate just the 3 of us. My Abuelita is supposed to come spend a couple of weeks with us and she's going to be here next week. As I'm getting ready for school I pick out my outfit, my skinny black jeans with rips at the knee and crisp white button up shirt and some black booties that I bought at the Givenchy boutique in the mall. After I did my hair and makeup adding some Stone lipstick from MAC I put on a chunky necklace on top of the collar of my white button up and picked my Kate Spade long strap black bag to use for the day. And because I was feeling adventurous when I was shopping last weekend, when I walked into the Balmain store and I spotted this leather jacket with metal details, I just knew I had to have it. So after I slipped it on over my white button up, I felt so chic and really badass. As I walk into the kitchen and pick up a yogurt and start to eat, I pick up my phone and smile as I see Liam's text wishing me a great morning and that instantly made me excited to get to school, I pick up some granola bars with chocolate chips that I'm recently become addicted to. And I head into my car, I lock my house up and set up the security.