Wanting You

Chapter Eight

Avery

"The class of 2016!"

Shouts and screams were heard from all he seniors while we threw our caps in the air, joyful ones. Some people were grinning, their mouths wide open, other people crying, proud of their accomplishments or hugging their friends. The caps looked like a sky covering us before they fell back down. People randomly grabbed a hat for themselves and started taking pictures all over the place.

And Colton and I, well he scooped me up and ran with me all around laughing. I couldn't breathe, I was so happy. Happy because I left high school, happy with my grades, and especially happy because Colton was with me through all these years. I really felt like a grown up. It was an exhilarating feeling too.

"Colton! Avery" someone shouted. Our laughters died down, and while I was still in his arms he carried me to our parents who called us. "Picture time" Andrea, Colton's mom, said. My mom had her camera out too. "Congratulations guys, you finally graduated!" she said.

After what felt like an hour of pictures we started leaving, me off course with Colton in his car. I wanted to have a photo, of Colton and I kissing like all couples do in their graduation, but there was no way that would happen. At least I got a picture of me kissing his cheek, and another of him kissing mine.

"Ice cream?" He asked. "Hell yeah" I said. It was weird for him to be graduating with me since he was nineteen, but it wasn't his fault. His family moved a lot when he was young and he started his first year of school late. But all is good, he doesn't seem bothered with it. It was sexy, since he was older. OMG! No. I should really stop thinking like that.

We took off our graduation gowns and caps, and walked towards our all time favorite ice cream parlor. We found this place when we where in sixth grade, our parents told us we were mature enough to go threw the neighborhood without them, and so we did. I remember the day clearly. We went to the park first and just fed the ducks and turtles by the pond, then we walked around and saw the ice cream sign. Not waisting a second we practically ran inside and ordered ice cream. What surprised me was that Colton paid for my ice cream for the very first time. In movies and books it's what guys do for their date or their girl, and my little kid mind thought that. Now I know it's because he cares about me, to the point where he never lets me buy something for him or us, it's always him. I feel bad but no matter what I say he always say no. So unless I buy something for him alone, he never lets me take my wallet out. I still try though. Just like I am now.

"Let me pa-"

"No" he said paying for my cookie dough and his fudge brownie ice cream. I sighed but didn't argue anymore. Melody came out from the back carrying a big box of ice. "My little graduates! Awww!" She said putting the box down and coming to us giving us a big hug at the same time. Melody was the owner of this place, and she was also the person who helped us with our orders the first time we came here. Since then we've been close with her.

She's an old lady, always working with a smile on her face, laughing with her customers, and making their day. She used to work here alone the first few years we came, but she said she got too tired and with the aging especially she hired a few people which are all nice just like her.

"I'm so proud of you guys" she said . "Oh melody, thank you so much." I said smiling. "It seems like you guys keep getting older every time I see you" she said slapping her thighs laughing. We laughed a bit before she asked us another question. "So have you applied to college?" She asked. "Yes we did, nothing too far away from here though, maximum an hour away. We're just hoping we get chosen in at least one college together" Colton said looking at me with a smile which I returned.

After we finished with the college subject we then enjoyed our time eating our ice cream at a table, with her passing every five minutes and chit chatting with us a bit.

***

I woke up with a surprised breathe. My room was dark, the only light came from the small slip open between the curtains at the middle. I had a bad dream, it's not considered a nightmare to people cause it didn't have ghosts or monsters or haunting memories. But to me it's considered a very scary dream.

Me and Colton were in a room, I was wearing a dress with heals, him a suit. I was helping him with his tie. "Thank you very much for helping us with this." He said. He looked nervous, scared even, so I was there to comfort him.

He was getting married.

To a girl, that wasn't me, and I was just there watching still not saying anything. I should be the girl walking down the aisle as she was now, I should be standing in front of him, a veil in front of my face, I should be saying the vows with him, and he should be the one I was destined for.

And most importantly, I should be the one that kisse-

I woke up before I got so see them kiss, it was awful. Just like a nightmare when you wake up sparing yourself for the bad part. I looked over at Colton and he was fast asleep, his breathes slow.

With his arms around me.

That comforted me, but not to the point where I was fine. I wasn't at all. I got up slowly putting a pillow between his arms and waked down stairs. The lamp in the living room illuminated the whole floor, and I knew that my mom was outside. Between days she would come down and sit out side, sometimes alone and sometimes with my dad. I was relieved that she decided to stay up today.

I walked out and she looked towards my way surprised, but once she saw my expression she put her mug of tea down. "What's wrong honey?" She asked concerned as tears slipped out of my eyes.

"Your right mom." I said wiping my tears, but there was no point cause they just kept coming. "I'm not happy" I said sobbing. "Oh Avery" she said opening her arms out to me.

That's all she needed to say before I was running to her and she was cradling me in her arms while I sat next to her. "I can't do it anymore mom, it's so hard. He's perfect and I want him all to myself. It's been years, the little crush grew and I love him so much now. And he doesn't" I whimpered with the last part. "He does love you Avery-"

"No he doesn't" I said. "And I don't want to ruin our relationship, it's just I love him so much. It's hard not to run up to him, kiss him, confess to him. Every day it's getting worse. All I want is to for him to say he's in love with me too, for us to be together." I spilled everything.

"For me to be happy". I said, my nose was starting to clog up and I was shaking all over, my breathes uneven. "Shh, shh. Calm down" she said holding my hands squeezing them. I finally started to relax a bit, but my heart was still aching. "Your grandma always said to me 'the things we really want in life will be hard to get'. She old me that the first days I met your dad even" she said. "Wait what?" I asked confused. "Your dad was in a relationship, it wasn't healthy though. It was toxic to him, he told me it was like she didn't even like him, but still kept being with him. And he didn't have the guts to break up with her. I fell in love with him the more we got to know each other in high school, and I felt the same way you are feeling right now. It all worked out though, we got together as soon as he left her, and he left her because he couldn't be with her when he loved me" she said. I was surprised and in shock.

"Everything happens in time, good or bad. But take this advice and wait, just a little more. Trust me you won't regret it" she said. "Ok" I said sniffing giving her a big hug. I walked back up to my room and removed the pillow getting back in its place. His arms wrapped tighter around me, and this time I felt safe like always as I fell asleep looking at his beautiful face.