Zen X Reader Insert Shots

{Broken} [Zen x Depressed! Reader]

                              You sighed as you laid back on his bed, covering your eyes with your arm. Your head throbbed slightly. The scent of Zen on the bed helped to calm you slightly. You felt your heart racing from the sight of the albino. You had come to his house to cheer him up from his depressed state. Why would he be depressed? Well, Zen had injured his ankle and being the kind person you were, you took up the job of taking care of the albino actor. 

                       'He will never fall in love with someone like you.' Your mind whispered to you, shattering your hopes as you took another shaky breath. You felt nervous. It was the first time in years you had been to someone's house. Zen would probably want to see you. You were here to cheer him up the best you can, after all. You loved Zen with all of your heart and you did not want him to be like you. 

                 'With someone like you, all you would do is to burden and bring him down.' 

                         Mustering your courage, you snuck out of his room and into his living room, settling yourself onto his couch, idly flipping through a pile of scripts at a corner. You noticed that his parts were highlighted in gray and you were amused and impressed. The highlights were done neatly as if Zen was a student analyzing some playbook a literature teacher would assign to the class. 

                         'Guess he's not here...' You thought, reading through the parts halfheartedly. 

                     "Oh, you left my room." Zen appeared, wearing a simple shirt with a hoodie and pants. Even in his simple outfit, he looked absolutely flawless in your eyes. 

                   Nodding awkwardly, you made room for him to sit down. You had no idea what to say. Maybe it was nerves or your heart that was close to an explosion. It felt strange since it had been a long time since you actually felt anything. 

                        "Look at the time, it's very late..."Zen glanced at the clock. 

                     "...You're right...Perhaps I should get going..."You arose from your place, neatly putting away the script you had been reading. You turned to collect your things from the bedroom as Zen followed you. 

                     "Uhm....Do you feel uncomfortable with me?"Zen asked softly, looking down sadly,"It feels like you are trying to push me away. That's sad..."

                       You could not say anything since it was the truth. You had been trying your best to push Zen away because of your feelings. You did not want him to get hurt by anything or anyone, especially yourself. All you wished was for him to be happy and you did not care if it meant that you would lose someone you care about, or even losing your potential source of happiness. 

                              "You were often cold to me on the messenger...Why are you being like this to me? I thought you had feelings for me at first...Was I deluding myself?" Zen asked, looking genuinely hurt. You wanted to speak, but his expression froze your words in your throat.