Insanity At Raspy Hill (Insane! Host x Child!/Teen! Reader)

Decisions

...........H-hello reader... From now on, your decisions matter. There will be a decision at the end of every chapter that decide the next chapter........

(WARNING! DEPRESSION, SUICIDAL THOUGHTS, AND SELF HARM)

Y/N POV: I had been living with Host and the others for ten years now. Now, I was 15, and everyone was super protective over me, as they were still unsure if Wilford would try to take me. I understood why they were protective, but I had gotten WAY better with my powers over the years.

   Light and Payton were like parts of my family. Which, technically, they were, since we were all made by God (if you're not Christian or Catholic or don't believe in God.... Meh), that made us all siblings. 

   I would say that Host became a father figure to me, he was that one person that was always with me, no matter what happened. He didn't quite like the idea of me dating, so that option was kinda out the window... But... Sam and Mas both had their eyes on me, I could tell. They were always doing nice things for me, trying to out-impress me. Today, wasn't much different.

   "Hey, Y/N!" Sam smiled at me. He may be 17, but he was always acting like a young child. I giggled and waved at him. 

   "Hey, Sam, how's it going?" He chuckled.

   "Mas is taking up the bathroom again, how do ya think?" I laughed.

   "Mas is such a girl sometimes. If you want, you can use my bathroom in my room?" Sam blushed, he tried to hide it, to no avail. I laughed again. "Don't worry, I don't keep my tampons out in the open if you know what I mean." Sam laughed awkwardly.

   "Sorry, I never know with girls anymore, haha." Sam and Mas didn't have much experience with girls, other than me. Even then, I'm an angel, so I don't know if I even count. 

   "Hey bro! Ya flirtin' with Y/N again?" Mas poked his head out, trying to embarrass his brother. It worked. Sam blushed. 

   "No! I'm just talking to her! If anything, you're the one who always flirts with her!" Mas gave him a look.

   "If that's what you want, sure! I'll always flirt with her!" Sam's mouth was hanging open, as he was outsmarted by his younger twin brother. 

   "Bathroom's all yours, bro!" Mas slung his arm over my shoulder. I tried to cover my face as I giggled a little. Sam walked away. 

   "I'll be right back, Y/N!" Sam said quickly, heading to the bathroom, knowing what Mas could do in such a small amount of time. I smirked to myself, my dirty mind getting the best of me. I may be an angel, but I'm not a saint. 

   "How have you been today? You seem quieter lately...." It was true, my depression getting the best of me, it was hard to change how God made you. I couldn't let them know, though, it wasn't their problem, it was mine. Always wearing the sweatshirts to hide the marks. I knew that I should tell them, but, I'm not strong enough. 

   "I'm fine." Two simple words, masking the pain of a lifetime. As always, he believed me.

   "Good! So... I was wondering if you wanted to go to dinner with me on Friday?" Mas asked, skipping past my emotions. I didn't know why I was complaining, I mean, I'm the one that decided not to tell them. 

   "Like... Like a date?" I was nervous. 

   "Um... Yeah! Is that okay?" Mas was nervous as well. 

   "Mas... I'm extremely flattered, but you know how Host is, he doesn't want me to date, yet..." I tried to let him down easy. 

   "Oh..." Mas looked down. Dammit Y/N! It's all your fault! You make everybody around you upset! You're no good! You'd be better dead! The voices started in my head again, taunting me, telling me to kill myself, trying to push me over the edge. I can't tell you how many times I've balanced on that cliff. *Sighs*

   "Wait! Maybe, me, Payton, you, and Sam can go together! That way, it's not a date, it's just a friendship outing!" I tried to make it better, to keep myself from stuttering like the idiot I am. Mas' face lifted back up. 

   "That's a really good idea, Y/N! I knew you were the smart one for a reason!" I blushed at the comment. 

   "Thank you, Mas, you're really sweet." Mas grinned.

   "That's me!" Sam peeped around the corner. 

   "What'd I miss?"

   "We're gonna go out on Friday! All of us. Me, Y/N, you, and Payton! How's that sound?" Mas asked. Sam smiled.

   "That sounds great!" Sam smiled. I gushed a little. I love both of them, they were both so alike and so sweet. If I ever dated one of them... I wonder who I would...

   Sam's got this personality that you can't ever match. He was sweet, kind, funny, and quite the character. He always made me feel better when I remembered my old life. He was so sweet to me. 

   Now, Mas! He had this bad boy reputation, but was a sweetheart at heart. He always knew how to make me laugh, even in my toughest days. Mas loved to mess around with Anti and Dark, which always made me laugh. Sometimes, he invited me to join him in his pranks, no matter how dangerous they were. 

   They both meant the world to me, I would be lucky to have any of them.

   If they even like your sorry ass!

  

 I shook my head, escaping my thoughts. Who would I rather though....?

(Sam or Mas? Vote in the comments. This may or may not effect the rest of the story.)

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OOH! I really like this change of pace! I hope you do too!