My life

Family

Hello, I know I know. 'Hey why haven't you posted in like 5 months?!'. Well it's partly because I moved houses and I kind of travelled to England?!?! So as you can imagine I haven't really had time to actually sit down and write.

So anyway, family. I haven't seen them in over six years since I moved countries in 2010. Before Mum and I left I was so excited to see my where I grew up again and just see my whole family. I then got on the plane... It was absolutely dreadful. No room whatsoever, but this doesn't stop me from being over the moon with happiness.

One week later and I can proudly say this has been the best week of my life. I'm getting emotional about it but honestly I can't explain how happy I am just being here. As you know if you have read my last few posts you'll know I'm not very happy at the moment so this has really helped and lifted my spirits. Last night we had a family gathering with all my cousins, aunties, uncles ect. And I was buzzing the whole time. I forgot what it was like hanging out with distant relatives.

I do not want to leave at all. I said goodbye to my nan and grandad on Saturday and it was so hard not to cry. But when I get on the plane I have a feeling I'm just gonna start balling my eyes out, to be honest I'm nearly crying now just thinking about leaving all my family behind once again.

You'll be proud to know that FACE TO FACE I told my cousin (we will call him Luke) about my anxiety and he cared so much. He gave me some tips and tricks to help me cope. He asked for a Skype call updating him on how my anxiety ends up with the tricks he gave me. But best of all I told FACE TO FACE my other cousin (we'll call her Kelsey) about my depression and anxiety! Bloody double whammy right there baby. But in all seriousness she actually tried so hard to help me, you could tell she cared a lot about my situation which made me feel so happy. She also asked for a Skype call updating her on how everything is going!

So if any of you have anxiety or depression and it's getting to a point where you feel like you can't cope anymore. Please tell a family member because they will honestly care so much. I didn't think anyone would care that much but they did and that made me feel so grateful for everything and made me realise how amazing family are.

I know this entry is shit but I don't fucking care cause I'm gonna look back on this and see it as the best moments of my life! By the way, I documented it by taking SOOOO many pictures!! So if you would like to see those pictures please feel free to follow me on Instagram @e.veque ... So yeah! Thanks so much for reading, love you all lots andddddd see ya next time.

until next time..
au revoir! 👋🏻