To Love A Hunter (sam x reader)

Through Another's Eyes: Part 2

*Sam's P.O.V.*

Cas and I were on our way to the playground where the secret gate into heaven was when Cas' phone went off. 

"Dean, what's wrong?" I hear him say. I raise an eyebrow at him and he shakes his head.

"Okay I'll be there as fast as I can." Cas says and hangs up.

"What's wrong?" I ask as he does a three-sixty in the middle of the road.

"Y/N is hurt. Dean accidentally shot her while working on the case and now she's unconscious and possibly  dead." he says. I felt my heart drop into my stomach. I had been having these weird feelings towards Y/N lately and knew exactly what they were but I didn't want what happened to Jess to happen to her. I gripped onto the handle out of fear. Fear of Cas' driving and fear for Y/N. 

We arrive back at the bunker within a few minutes and run through the hallway. We hear Dean yell that he's in Y/N's room. We make our way there and I see Y/N lying on the bed, her lifeless body just there I rush over and grab her wrist to check her pulse. Nothing, absolutely nothing. I feel myself start to tear up and look at Dean. He looks back and I shake my head. She's dead, I think, Why is this happening again?  I start to fall in love again and this happens. What have I done to deserve this?  I start to feel a pulse again and I look up to see Cas in Dean's arm and I watch as Dean kisses Cas hair. Dean looks up at me and I say, "She's okay. She's fine. He'll be fine." He nods at me and then leaves. I look back to Y/N and see that she's breathing. I let out a sigh and sit on the floor next to her bed. I stay there for almost a week never leaving her except to go to the restroom. Dean and Cas had been bringing me meals but I didn't eat much considering I was worried about her. It's been a week and she still hasn't shown any signs of waking up. I get up to go to the bathroom and to tell Dean I was starting to worry about Y/N. I flush the toilet when I hear a scream come from Y/N's room. I run back only to see her missing from her bed and hear the lock of her bathroom door. I jiggle the door handle hoping to unlock it from the outside, "Y/N ?"

"Go away! I don't want to hurt you!" she cries. I now understand what's going on, she thinks she's turning. "Y/N, you're fine. If you unlock the door I will explain everything." I say in a calming voice, hoping that'll help change her mind.

"Just go away. I've been bit and I don't want to hurt you or Dean. Please go away." she cries again. Knowing that nothing else but saying I'll take care of her if she does try to hurt me will change her mind, I say, "Y/N, please unlock the door. I promise you won't hurt me, and if you try I'll take care of you and make sure you won't hurt anyone else." She's so much like Dean it's not even funny. I hear the door unlock and then footsteps run away from it. I walk in and start to walk towards her. She looks like a scared little kid, with the tears running down her face, I couldn't ever imagine her being like this. How could she be so fragile when she's so tough? She puts her hands up, warning me to stay away, but I continue to walk towards her. I grab her hands gently and I feel this sort of spark. It surprises me but I fight it off and put her hands in her lap. I sit down next to her, wrapping my arm around her I rest my chin on her head as she curls into me, crying into my shoulder. My heart is beating so inhumanly fast  it scares me a little. We sit there for a few minutes until Y/N calms down enough to sit up on her own. "Are you ready for me to explain?" I ask as I watch her wipe a stray tear away. I finally realize how fragile she really is. She nods and I get up to offer her my hand. She takes and I help her up but not before I feel another bolt of electricity. I look at her and I can tell she felt it too . You know the rest from there.

*That evening*

I walk up to Y/N's door and knock. She opens it and goes to sit on her bed, pulling her laptop into her lap. I look at her night stand and see the burrito from this morning. "Hey." she says. I say it back still standing in her doorway. 

"So how long was I actually out? You kind of left that part out this morning." 

I avoid her question by saying, "Dinner is ready if your're hungry. I made some garlic butter noodles. Whole wheat of course." I giggle a little at that last part. She sighs, clearly not amused, "Okay, I'll be there in a few minutes." I nod and close her door and go to the dining room to eat my dinner. An hour has passed and I go to put my plate in the sink only to see that her plate is still sitting there. I walk to her room to see that her door is open and that she now has a book in her lap. "Hey dinner is getting cold." I say as I sit down next to her.

"Sorry I'm just not hungry. You never did answer my question earlier."

"I know I just didn't want to freak you out even more," I pause, "Do you really want to know?" I look down and start messing with my hands trying to figure out how to tell her without breaking down.

"Yes. I really do."

"A week," I say quietly as I felt the memories start to flood back.

"A week?"

"Yeah I was really scared. Most people wake up within an hour. We were all really scared. Dean was starting to think that Cas didn't bring you back." I twist that last part around a little. Yes Dean was a little scared but I was the one who was thinking that. I feel a tear slip down my face and I wipe it away. "Oh." I hear her whisper.

"I can go if you would like." I look up at her as she nods and I pat her foot on my way out. I go to my room and start to silently curse at myself. Why do I fall so easily? I put my head in my hands and start to cry. Why can't I just be normal? Dean and I could have such a good life. We should be married by now and be having kids. I see Jess out on a front porch watching as a little boy and a little girl run around the yard playing chase. I look out at the kids, laughing as the little girl runs around with a little Superman cape flapping behind her while she's chasing the boy in a Batman mask. I look back at Jess only to see that it's Y/N and she smiles at me. I cry even harder knowing that that vision will never come true. Suddenly I have a sharp pain in my head and I'm seeing Y/N lying in my arms with a knife sticking out of her chest as she whispers, "I love you. Please don't try to bring me back this time." and suddenly her body goes limp in my arms. In grab her closer to my chest,I start crying. A familiar feeling comes back with this scene and it's not heart break. I think, trying to figure out why it was familiar when I realize it's an actual vision and not just a figment of my imagination.