My Tourmaline

Chapter Fourteen

Half an hour, and here I still am sat against my front door crying my eyes out. Its the worst feeling in the world, being left alone crying, because you've done something wrong, but you don't know what you have actually done.

I don't know if I'm overreacting, but Harry has such an affect on me, I cant control the response my body seems to have. Its not the first time I have cried over him, and I don't even know much about him! Am I going crazy?

I need to ring someone. I need someone to speak to, or escape to. Its times like these when I am so envious of people who have parents. I need my best friend, but she is far too busy. The closest person to me would be Ed I guess. Before I could think it through I began dialling his number, still slumped against the door.

"Hello?"

"E..ed?" I sobbed.

"Lil? What's wrong? Are you crying?!"

"Can...can I come and stay at yours please?"

"What's happened Lil? I'm coming to get you, right now."

He hung up, and I continued to cry, tears frantically falling down my cheeks. Why am I feeling as if he has just dumped me, when we had nothing going on anyway?! Its the rejection, and the pure anger he has towards me for no obvious reason. He may have a perfect explanation, but he didn't even say goodbye. We had a lovely time and he makes me feel like he has something, not really love, but a feeling towards me. Why would he neglect me like that?!

About twenty minutes later, after wandering aimlessly through the flat, I heard a knock at the door. I ran to the entrance, swinging the door open to see Ed in a pair of jeans and a hoody chucked on, his hair ruffled liked he'd come out in panic.

"What the hell has happened?!"

"Just please, take me away from here."

I burst into tears, leaping into Ed's arms as he clutched me tight, sweeping me off my feet, and closing the door behind him. He carried me downstairs to his car. I always forgot how strong he was, even at my age he could lift me. We got to the car, and I clambered in the back. Nina was in the front of the car, sat holding her baby bump. I felt so selfish that I had dragged the two of them out.

"You okay sweetie?!" She whispered, turning her head behind the back of the car to face me.

"I just need to get away for a bit, if that is okay?"

"Honey, you are ALWAYS welcome at ours."

"I feel so selfish, what with the baby and everything. I'm so sorry for dragging you out!"

I genuinely feel so guilty.

"We were already out shopping anyway love, so don't worry. It's no trouble at all."

She replied with a warm smile, turning back to face the front of the car. Ed jumped into the car, slamming the door behind him.

"Okay? Lets go."

He nodded at me, before turning on the ignition, and off we went. I nuzzled my face against the cold glass window, gazing out as it began to pour with rain. I began tracing the rain drops with my fingers, putting all my thoughts to the back of my head. I was looking forward to having a peaceful night away without thinking of everything that has happened today. I still had no idea what on earth was wrong, and what had happened. But for now, I wanted to keep it that way. I was considering telling Ed of the past events from the other week, but I genuinely wanted to forget about it all.

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I grabbed the few blankets that Nina had previously given me, curling myself up in a ball and positioning myself so I was comfy on the sofa. I had a huge conversation with Ed about what was wrong, but I didn't go into too much detail as I knew he would get angry.