"Do you even love me anymore?!"
"No, I don't. You spend all your time at those stupid YouTube offices. With all those men, I'd think you'd be cheating on me."
"I would never."
"Doesn't matter! Leave. I don't want you here anymore."
With that I walked out the door.
Mama never told me how to love
Daddy never told me how to feel
It was raining now, which was normal for Seattle.
Momma never told me how to touch
Daddy never told me how to heal
I walked back to the offices from my lunch break. YouTube offices.
Momma never set a good example
Daddy never held momma's hand
I think my boyfriend, Darium, broke up with me.
Momma found everything hard to handle
Daddy never stood up like a man
When I arrived at the door, I just stood there.
I've walked around
Broken
I'm broken. I cried there for a minute.
"Dena!? Are you ok!?"
Emotionally frozen
Getting it on
I stood there not knowing what to do. It was Ross or Tim of course. Or maybe even Adam.
Getting it wrong
How do you love someone?
Ross and Max showed up at the door and Ross hugged me. I shook my head.
"I'm not ok."
Without getting hurt
How do you love someone?
"What's wrong? Did Darium do something?" I shook my head.
"No."
Without crawling in the dirt
So far in my life
"I've been too busy. He told me that he didn't love me anymore because of it. He thought I was cheating on him. Honestly, I think he was cheating on me. " "Well you are a attention seeking whore." Max said, but I ignored him. Even though it did sting.
Clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love?
"Hey how about we go eat ice cream, ya know, what we usually do." I nodded and sniffled.
How do you love someone?
How do you love?
We walked inside and grabbed the ice cream in the fridge. I pulled out my lime tub and sat on the counter with a spoon. I started crying again.
How do you love someone?
I was always the chosen child
"Can you just stop crying!? You don't know what bad is! Bad is being dumped while on a date!"
The biggest scandal I became
They told me I'd never survive
"Max! Stop. She's suffering." That word played in my mind suffering. I am.
But surviving's my middle name
I walked around
"No! Stop pitying me! I'm may not be ok, but you can't look at me like that!" I yelled.
Hoping
Just barely coping
My mind keeps replaying that as I walked out.
Getting it on
Getting it wrong
How do you love someone? I mean I love Max, but he hates me. I wish I could hate him. I just wish.
How do you love someone?
Without getting hurt
But I can't. I love him too much. I want to leave, but I can't. Not until I know he hates me truly, or if he loves me.
How do you love someone?
Without crawling in the dirt
How do I cope with this. Love is evil. Love is now my enemy, and hate is now my friend.
So far in my life
Clouds have blocked the sun
How did it go by so fast?
How do you love?
How do you love someone?
How do you love?
How do you love someone?
Its hard to talk
To see what's deep inside
Its hard to tell the truth
When you've always lied
How do you love someone?
Without getting hurt
How do you love someone?
Without crawling in the dirt
So far in my life
Clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love?
How do you love someone?
How do you love someone?
And make it last
How do you love someone?
Without tripping in the past
So far in my life
Clouds have blocked the sun
How do you love?
How do you love someone?
How do you love?
How do you love someone?
Someone
I will win you over Max. I love you.
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