Holding On To You : Joshler

Part 9

Tyler was sitting in the dark forest, alone. His heart was completely shattered. He couldn't get the images of Josh kissing someone else out of his mind. He was sitting on the same blanket, in the same place where Josh had asked him to be his boyfriend. He was so happy just a week ago. Tyler felt like he was overreacting since him and Josh had only been together for a week, but Tyler had been in love with Josh and only Josh for years now. His vision was blurry from crying so much and his chest physically ached from the pain of his heartbreak. "If I meant so much to him, no matter what mental state he was in, he wouldn't ever purposely hurt me. I mean nothing to him. I mean nothing to anybody.", his mind kept telling him. His whole body was shaking from his sobs. This is the saddest he had ever felt in his entire life. "Nothing, nothing, nothing.", he muttered to himself. He heard car tires screech and a familiar voice yell out his name. It was a drunken Josh looking for him. This made Tyler cry and panic. He knew he had to do it now before Josh saw him. Tyler picked up the shiny piece of metal with his shaking hands. He could hardly see his arms as he placed it against them and cut, deep. He gasped out for air and felt the blood rushing out of his body. He laid down on the blanket and watched the stars as he felt the life slowly leaking out of him. "This is it.", he thought. He heard footsteps crunching through the leaves of the forest and he sat up, but his head got dizzy so he fell back down. Josh was screaming his slurred name out as loud as he could. He heard sobbing coming from the left of him and when he ran over he dropped to his knees and burst into tears. "No no no no.", he said as he was shaking Tyler's shoulders. Tyler felt Josh's warm tears drop on him as he opened his eyes to look at the red-haired boy. "I'm sorry Josh. I love you.", he croaked out. Josh dropped his head into Tyler's chest and was shaking from crying. "You can't die on me Tyler. Please don't die." Josh choked out between sobs. He picked the boy up and ran him to his car, and felt Tyler's small body get more limp with each passing minute.