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;harry

at last, we arrive at caliper lake provincial park in ontario. we were still both bare, though i was covered with a blanket since i was uncontrollably cold.

i just said it was because of the rain, but i knew it was the lack of pills i took.

callum dressed before he checked the reservation board, though the park seemed quite empty, which we weren't upset about.

as we drove, i kept thinking about us. how lucky i was to be by his side through everything, and how grateful i was for him to be by my side. i love him so much.

he reopened the door with a sigh, the coldish air from the darkening sky blowing in. i shiver once again as he begins to drive.

"we are in the desolate campsite, literally five hundred metres away from the nearest utility." he sighs, looking upset with himself.

"why are you upset?" i pout, looking at his frail hand gripping the clutch.

"i dunno.. i just wish we were closer to everything i guess." he murmurs, driving along the gravelly road.

"maybe you can take this chance of being away from everyone else to get closer to me.." i trail off, grabbing his hand in mine.

his eyes flash towards me, though i stared out the window, my lip pressed between my teeth.

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"harry, the fire is big enough now." callum says from outside the tent, so i hum, tossing the sleeping bag case to the side, before crawling off the blown up mattress and exiting the somewhat warm tent.

i pulled my sleeves over my hands, the icy wind biting at my face. i shivered slightly, watching as callum stares at the fire, hands stuffed in his jumper pocket, a light gray beanie adorning his head.

"you look cozy." i smile sweetly towards the boy, earning a small smile.

"i'd be more cozy if you were here with me." he pats his lap, and i sigh.

"callum.." i whimper, and he furrows his brows.

"what?" he asks, causing me to bite my cheek.

"m'too heavy." i murmur, looking down towards my feet.

"oh harry.." i hear him sigh, before he approaches my body.

his arms wrap around my waist, and i immediately break down into tears. i wrap my arms around his frail shoulders, nuzzling my face into his collarbone. tears streamed down my face as we slowly rocked back and forth.

"what's wrong my love?" he whispers, and i choke on a sob.

"i... i just.. i-i don't want you to be hurting o-or in pain... i-i don't want to lose you callum. and-and i've been thinking about hurting myself to take away your pain but i know that's not how that works and i am so scared of losing you and you being sad-"

my rambling was cut off by his soft lips. i immediately felt my breath hitch, his lips on mine feeling foreign. they always will- i will never get used to them.

"shh harry. you aren't going to lose me, i'm not in much pain, and you make that pain subside, just by smiling. i'm okay, and if i'm not, i'll tell you, i promise my love." he whispers against my lips, before he replaces the words.

i feel my fear vanish, i feel my heart pound against my chest. i feel love flow through my veins, i feel wanted.

i feel sparks.

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gahahahah cliche but it was necessary. ilyasm thank you for reading up to here! -nicole xx