I already broke up with him. Like what? Mag ttwo months? Yes after 2 years in a smooth rocky road relationship, it already ended. Many people asked me why, and many still is asking me continuously. Its always the same answer. "Kasi gusto ko lang" and after that the same response from them will be "g**o ka talaga. Kawawa naman yung boyfriend mo sayo".
Nakakatmad makipag usap sa mga taong ganyan yung pag iisip. Mas magiging kawawa siya pag nagstay ako tapos ayoko na. Ayoko ng half hearted. Mas magiging kawawa siya na sa tuwing magttext sya ng good morning, night, lunch and any message at naghihintay sa response ko eh ako busy, tulog, o kahit may time tinatamad na magreply sa kanya. Diba? Mas okay na bnreak ko sya.
Sabi nila bakit daw ba? Ano bang nangyari. Simple. Its over. Im already over him. I know its a jerks reason, but what can I ddo? Im just being honest. The fck I care about anyone. I just have to choose what, where and when Im gonna be happy. Magsstay ka pa ba kung burden na yung tingin mo sa relationship niyo? Yes, i chose not to stay. I didnt chose to stay kasi Im a totak wreck, beyond repair. To be honest, I really did lose my identity in that 2 years relationship. Not that i didnt enjoyed it. I was happy within that 2 years were together mej blur nga lang sa last 2 months.
I got fed up with shts. And i decided to lighten my load, ikaw ba magsstay ka pa kung burden na sayo yung pagmamahal? Why would you wanna suffer more? Like no way in hell.
And i just wanna be single, at last. I just wanna be an individual. Im not really worthy to be loved, cause I end up destroying the one who loves me and the one I love. Its really not a good feeling.
When youre hurting, best way to deal is to sleep. And im not broken hearted because of the break up for the record. Im broken, my heart is in agony cause my soul is not here. It already is wandering on somewhere I dont know.
