"You bastard! All this and for what? To what end? When will it stop?"
Mama and Vater are at it again. The fighting! Every night Vater comes home late. So late it is almost morning. And after they always fight.
I crouch in the corner of my bedroom, the shades pulled over the large windows. I hold my head in my hands hoping to block out the yells.
When I was a mädchen my Vader was my papa. But now everything is different. He got a promotion. My Vader is different, he is a monster...
He no longer cares, about me or my mama.
Despite my futile attempt to block everything. I can still hear. The shouts are like knives in my gut. Twisting and burning into me. I taste salty drops on my tongue.
Tears? Stop crying Annette. You have to be strong. For mama! And yet I can't seem to stop. If anything I just cry harder. Silent sobs rack my body. Rushes of heat and cold run through my body causing me to shiver and shake.
Stop. Just stop hurting mama I plead in my head. But I know in my heart until he learns humility it won't ever stop. And mama? Well she would never leave him...
My door swings open and my mama rushes in.
"Time for bed Annette dear. It's very late mein kind."
I slowly stood up unsure on my own feet. My mama reached for me and helped me up. As soon as she saw my face I could see the anguish in her eyes. However, she quickly hid it.
"Wipe away your tears Annette, a lady never cries of trivial things"
I nod my head in understanding. However, in my heart I know this is no trivial matter.
With help from my mama I climb into the king sized bed. I sink right into the mattress. Mama pulls the thick blanket over me and tucks it under my chin.
"Gute Nacht mein kind" she whispers in my ear.
"Gute nacht mama."
She pulls my canopy closed and I'm enveloped in a frightening darkness.
"Sei tapfer Annette." I murmur as I fall into a fitfully sleep.
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Ok people first of all some info all German words and phrases will be translated. Also don't kill me if they are not completely correct. I used Google translate ( such a Cheat I know). Ok so translations will be in italics and notes will be in bold. Peace!
Mama - mommy
Vater - father
Mädchen - girl
Papa - daddy
Mein kind - my child
Gute nacht - good night
Sei tapfer - be brave
So that's all the translations and notes any ideas, comments, constructive criticism and questions are very welcome! So you know the drill ✌.
