omg its already thursday its been so long since last week lol. okay so today had its ups and it had its downs too.... i got well... beaten up today by a "friend" or so i thought, i also most likely bombed my quizzes and tests but idk i also pulled a muscle in my leg so yaaaaay...
umn, ive been going to this youth group and even though its my second time i feel like i can be myself around my new friends so its pretty chill. i told one of them today that i was trans and i think shes okay with it? idk. but i really like both of them I havent had like actual friends that i could be open to that are not in band and are involved in the church.
but like most people, no life is perfect.. its funny how i can be so positive at church and around friends that im just lying to myself and them that im hurting so much.. its so hard growing up faster than expected since i was spoiled by my mom when i was younger but now shes in the hospital.. i know i shouldnt be cutting or taking more pills to feel numb but honestly even though i pray jus on those really hard nights i dont feel anything.
i should get back to my work, i have a super easy project but i have to wake up early to walk to school. oh well. i hope next week things will be better in my school life and i hope my church life will also improve with the new people i have met ( hopefully i dont frick it up like i do with everything..)
my song of the day is This is Gospel by Panic! At the Disco
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Freewrite Thursday
Non-FictionOkay so, for some reason im done with life on Thursdays. So I decided that I will write how i feel? idk... I know half of the stuff im gonna say isn't going to make sense because im not gonna edit any of it. My titles are gonna be some of my favorit...
