okay so first off i should be studying but frick it. anyways im in a state of healing? yeah... honestly its been hard getting over someone close to me who is not in my life anymore, but ik that they were a good soul and now they are looking down and protecting me... ANNYWAAYYSS for people who do know me thats why i legit just broke down, and i needed healing...... idk its been hard since it happened, it was just like that you know?
on a high note, im a leader in one of my clubs, its pretty fun and i cant wait to do competitions. umn ive been kinda depressed lately but I just try to block it with my studies, honestly the only thing that is able to distract me. another thing is that i lost some weight which is good but ive been getting sick more and more now. oh well.
theres this girl (yes im the most pathetic human being in the whole world who is literally a fuck boi) in one of my clubs and omfg she is so cute, i mean shes a grade below me but idk, we just met and i dont want to mess anything up if there is a chance lol... come to think of it idk if shes pan or not-straight lol...
uhhh I didnt cut today which is also good, but its like an addiction you know, ive been playing with my hands and my leg has been more shaky and cutting seems to soothe everything. it seems like if i do it more it would work again but ik its bad for me so idk what to do.
UHHH I CRIED LIKE SO MUCH THIS WEEK but i think its the raging estrogen that i have to live with omfg just give me a T shot PLEASE.
oh speaking of which, im planning on coming out to my parents as transgender, so thatll be fun since my dad kicked me out jus for having short hair :)))))
my song of the day is cancer Cover by twenty one pilots
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Freewrite Thursday
No FicciónOkay so, for some reason im done with life on Thursdays. So I decided that I will write how i feel? idk... I know half of the stuff im gonna say isn't going to make sense because im not gonna edit any of it. My titles are gonna be some of my favorit...
