Tick-Tock

Tick 4 - No More You!

Taking away ones life is a sin...

I know... but... you said it yourself didn't you...

That even if someone dies today, tonight, tomorrow, the next day or any other day... the stars would still appear bright in the sky, the sun and the moon would still come out, the earth won't ever stop rotating, seasons would still change. And it'll rain, it'll storm, it'll hail and it'll be sunny, there would still be rainbows in the sky and nothing would ever change.

Everything, Everyone... has their own significance in this world...

Some are meant for Greatness...

Some are meant for Evil...

But no matter what someone and something is for... Another someone and something is made for it as its significant other...

As for us... I'm probably not born as your significant other and maybe you weren't born as mine as well, but you are all that I knew and would ever know. You're all that I want, and call it selfish but I don't want any other significant other but you.

After this... I'm sure we won't see each other, for I know I'll be going to a different place from where you went...

But I just want to stop hurting... it hurts so much I can't take it, and I know the people around me can't take it any longer either... seeing me like this...

So maybe this is something selfish...

And yes I know its a sin...

But I won't regret taking my own life away if it means good for them and if it means... I will no longer hurt you...

I'm sure seeing me like this hurts you...

I know you won't be proud...

I know I can just move on... but that's not as easy at is sounds...

Moving on is easily said than done...

And looking at myself now... I don't think I'll be moving on any sooner...

How long do I have to be in pain to end this...

How long do my family,friends and you have to watch me suffer...

I'm so tired... the sadness and depression is eating me up and I can't bare it anymore...

One day... you made me promise to meet you in the future right...

I hope we'll meet Rhain... I definitely hope we do...

I'll look for you there... Everybody gets reincarnated right...

But till then... today... right now...

Forgive me...

I closed my eyes... I was about to jump off the The Clock Tower, why I chose this place was because this was the place where we both spent so much time together... This was our sanctuary... This was a very special place to the both of us... Its a magical place and somehow I'm wishing for a miracle that I know would never happen... I wouldn't want to mess it up, but dying here would make me feel a little better... Like as if I was close to her... I know we won't see each other after this cause I'm committing a sin and I know where I'm going straight after its done...

That's why even for just the last time...

I want to be with her and this was the closest place I could get close to her... to our memories...

I'm sorry... Mom... Dad... Rhain... Your Parent's... The Spencer's...

Its all my fault... I'm sorry...