Skinny*ON HOLD*

Chapter 4

"My mother came to visit me yesterday." I say to Sarah as I look at the grummy tile floor of my "room".

"It took her a week to come and see you?" Sarah asks surprised.

"Yeah, but I don't really care. I met a girl." I say to her.

"Really? What's her name and how'd you meet her?" Sarah asks me.

"After you dropped me off here last week, I had no idea where to go or what to do, so Ashley, the girl I met, showed me the place. She's also schizo and has an eating disorder. Dr. Higgens says that Ashley and I will make really good friends."

"Oh." Was all Sarah says.

"Yeah, but Ashley's schizo is way worse than mine."

"How worse?"

"It's so bad that she bangs her head against the wall. I asked her why she does it and she said 'Because it shuts them up for a while.' She told me that when they let us go out to the library, the voices tell her to jump in front of the bus, but right when she's about to, the voices say no. I'm scared for her." I tell Sarah.

"Do the nurses do anything about it?" Sarah asks.

"What can they do?" A high pitched voice asks. Sarah and I both pop our heads up to see a short, small Latina standing in the door way. Ashley moves her long brown her out of her face and examines Sarah.

"Well, can't they give you medication?" Sarah asks Ashley.

"Only when I sleep, but they don't want me to sleep." Ashley says to Sarah. I can tell that Sarah's concerned about her.

"I can't even begin to imagine what you two are going through." Sarah says to both of us.

"How old are you?" Ashley asks Sarah.

"25."

"Okay. Have a nice day." Ashley says to Sarah, clearly trying to get rid of her.

"I'll come by tomorrow to see you, okay?" Sarah says to me. I nod my head at her and watch her leave the room. Ashley stands up and closes the door behind Sarah.

"They don't like her," Ashley says then sits on my bed next to me, "but they like you."

"Whats wrong with Sarah? She's nice and she listens and my voices only stop when she's around."

"Mine do to, but because they know- all of our voices know that they only stop because she's trying to get rid of us. Haven't you noticed that as soon as you told her that you hear things, she's suddenly around more?"

"I never really thought about it." I say looking down and the floor. 

"Anyways, your mom is here. The doctors want to send her up here and asked me to make sure you're okay with that."

I bit the inside of my cheek. "Okay." I say to Ashley.

"It's your mom. Give her a hug. Tell her you miss her."

"No don't do that. She'll want you out and bring you home to him."

"Let her take you home. You know you liked what she did to you."

"Hi." I say in a shaky voice silencing the voices as soon as my mom walks in the room. 

"Get your stuff together. You're coming home with me." She says not me. 

"No hello? Fucking bitch."

"I have 5 more days of testing." I say to mom but obeying her orders and packing my things.

"Not anymore. I can't afford this place so your brother has been busting his ass at work and taking extra shifts for this."

"Just go with her. You know you want to. You know you miss her touch. But you really want his touch."

"Oh." I say to the voices.

"'Oh' that's all you can say? Good for nothing son of a bitch. Lets go." She says then grabs my wrist.

"If she only knew." He laughs a wicked laugh while fading away.

"Let me go! I can walk myself." I yell at my mom. A few nurses turn and look and my mom just smiles softly at them.

"Don't ever pull something like that again." My mom says when we get out to her car. "Just wait until we get home." She pulls out of the parking lot and lights a cigarette. "Oh and I hope you don't plan on going back to that therapist shit anymore. I just got the bill and I'm not paying for it and neither is Robert."

"What am I supposed to do then?" I whine to her.

"Figure this not eating shit your damn self. You're lucky we paid for this." She takes a drag of her cigarette.

"Why do you hate me?" I ask in a small voice.

"You ran your father off, thats why. And you make Robert and I spend all this money on you. Sometimes I think you want us to end up homeless."

"When molest me then?" I ask. I feel a sharp pain against my cheek. She slapped me. I feel a single tear fall down my cheek.

"Why would you ever say anything like that? We would never do anything like that."

"You touched me and he raped me!" I shout at her.

"I did not! I only did what was best for you. Get out and go to your room!" She shouts at me before leaving the car.

"Listen to mommy dearest. She knows what's best for you"

"Don't worry child, she won't stay mad. Just you wait....

"...She'll run a bath for you,...."

"Brush your hair,....."

"And get you ready for...."

"Him." All three voices say at the same time.

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A/N

I'm going to be focusing on this story since it is a short story. I think ten chapters is good. I want to finish it before New Years so all other storys are on hold until then.

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- Morgan Jay