Innocence & Instinct

when the past finds you ..Part 35

Back at the cabin after a quick shower I went to bed only to be awoken a short time later with a sharp pain.

I got up to go to the bathroom as another one hit falling to the floor I called out to Derek the moment he saw me he picked me up and carried me to the car.

On the way to the hospital, he called Scott and told him to call his mom. At the Er I'm rushed to the back where I am informed, I'm having a miscarriage and at this early stage there isn't alot that can be done.

So after all that we've gone thought there would be no baby.

After a few hours, they brought me home not to the cabin but Aunt Melissa's.

The only home Id had ever known till I meet Derek. After he had laid me down, he climbed into bed with me holding me as I cryed.

I felt so cold inside dead maybe more correct.I had so many questions but could not bring myself to voice them as if I had asked outloud. Derek said " Anna nothing you did caused this. It's not you fault . do you understand me?"

" Derek what if I did? what if this happened because ."

" Anna no."

I was holding back tears.

Derek " it's okay to cry. '

" no I may never stop crying if I start again."

 " It's part of the grieving process.It's how you heal.Our baby is gone. You can cry It doesn't mean your weak.I will be here for you.'

It was as if the flood gates opened tears streaming down my face clinging to him as if I might get washed away with MY tears. After what felt like hours the tears slowed as I lay in his arms wondering if anything would ever feel normal again I drifted to sleep.The next few days were the same. Some days later Derek told me he needed to go out but he'd only be gone for a short time.I told him it was okay that Scott and Melissa were there. I watched from my window as he pulled out.but stood there long after he left wondering how everything just seemed to go on.I heard a knock on the front door not much caring till I heard her voice.There was a soft knock on my door and in walked my mother Elizbeth Marie James.

 " what are you doing here."

 " How are you?"

 " why would you care?"

" you know thats not true.you are my child wether you like it or not."

 " I'm not a child .I'm an adult. When I was a child and needed you Where were you? You were never there so why are you here now?"

" No you still a child.If you were an adult like you, claim you would not be doing the things you are doing. Anna, a dog? You couldn't find anyone else that would have you? "

 " he's not a dog. I have done nothing to be ashamed of I love him."

Elizabeth " voice rising " Really, Do you have any idea what you are making me look like to my new husband and his family? First, you take off here then you get pregnant.By a werewolf no less."

refusing to let the shock I felt about what my mother said be show on my face I said

" Mom what do you want ? why did you come here?"

"  I'm sorry I'm reduced to stalking my own daughter.But you need to grow up and see things for how they really are.These things are monsters ."

 " but they are't! They care and love like anyone else. Sometime more than other people."