The Nerd And The Biker

Chapter 13: Patchwork Job

It's been two days since Axel brought me to the biker compound. I haven't left his room because he won't let me, after he brought me my clothes he has been grouchy, but all that is stopping today. I need to get back to my own life, I have a job that needs to be taken care of. With my decision in mind I get out of bed and head towards his bathroom that's attached to his room. I quickly shower and dress and pack my clothes into the small suitcase he brought them in. I open the door and make my way down what I hope is the hallway to the exit. No one stopped me or even gave me a second glance as I walked by them, I don't see my brothers or my friends anywhere so I quickly make my way to the front door. I run outside with my suitcase rolling behind me and jump on what I hope is Axel's bike.

I put the small suitcase in the saddle bag and start the bike up. It doesn't take long for someone to realize that I'm on his bike and they run inside to get him and my brothers, they had gone to a meeting in some place of the house. I quickly make my way to the exit hoping that no one stops me, and no one does. It takes me an hour to get to my house but I'm okay with that because I'm finally home and I'm not surrounded by people judging me for what I've done or what they think I've done.

I run inside the, suitcase dragging behind me, and lock the front door. I run to my room and turn on my stereo and just lay on my bed thinking about what has happened in the last two weeks. It takes maybe 30 minutes before there are rumbles of motorcycles at my house, and one pissed-off Axel banging at my front door yelling at me to open it so we can talk.

I change into some more comfortable clothes than what he brought me at the compound and carried my dirty clothes basket downstairs so I can start laundry. After I get the load started I go to open the front door, I'm nearly punched in the face after Axel tries to bang on the door one more time to try to get me to open it, but I dodged it before it hit me.

"Yes Axel?" I ask him.

"Princess why did you leave the compound?" He asks through his teeth.

"I was tired being trapped in your room, I wanted fresh air and you wouldn't let me leave the room  to get some. It's like you're trying to put bubble wrap around a broken person hoping that I'll get fixed one way or another but it's not going to happen Axel you just need to let me be alone for a little bit longer so I can fix myself and not be judged for how I do it." I tell him, he tries to interrupt me but I keep going." I'm not some child that needs to have gloves on when going outside or to be protected from myself, I know what I did was wrong I just need time not suffocated by you or by my brother's who are just "trying to help." Give me two days by myself and I'll be fine."

"Can I talk now princess?" Axel asks. "I'm sorry if you think we've been suffocating you we just don't want to lose you. You scared us when you didn't answer the phone. Don't be afraid to come to us if you need help, we want to be there for you. Princess you're not broken you just been dealt a bad hand and you're making the best out of it. Forget what other people think and focus on what you think about yourself." He pulls me into a hug and kisses the top of my head.

I look behind him and see that my brothers have hung their heads in shame at what I said. They look at me and try to smile but it looks more like a grimace. One by one they come up and hug me and apologize for what they've done or said. James looked the most distraught, you can tell he was trying to hold back tears as he  apologized for what he said to me at the Pit Stop. None of them would cry in front of each other, it had been instilled in their minds never cry in front of other people but only to do so in private.

After they've all said their apologies and left I close the front door and go back inside to finish my laundry. Cleaning is always been a way to relieve stress and to overcome bad emotions that bubble inside of me. So I clean my house from top to bottom hoping to get some of the tension out of myself. It takes me all day and nearly all of my cleaning supplies are gone before I think the house is good enough and that I'm over what I've done to others and to myself. It's a patchwork job but I'm happy with the results right now because it means I'm still alive and then I can still move on from what I did to myself and to the others. It's not the best but it'll work for right now, I'll be ok but I won't be the best, but who's the best at fixing themselves.

It's not even 10 o'clock and Axel is already back at the house knocking on the front door. He likes sleeping next to me because it makes him feel at peace as he's told me many times over the last 2 days. I open the door and see that not only is Axel standing there but so are my brothers and my friends. Quietly they all come inside and sit on the furniture as couples. Axel waited by the front door as I stand there with my mouth open in shock. I still haven't apologized to Summer for the words I said to her and they've been eating me up inside as has everything else I've said to the others, and I figured they'd still be mad at me but I guess they're not. I quickly shut the front door and run to where Summers at and wrap my arms around her shoulders and start crying against her neck. She doesn't say anything as she wrapped her arms around me. Soon after Autumn, Secret and Brady come and wrap their arms around me and Summer they don't say anything but knowing that they're there feels like home. I whisper how sorry I am to them as they hold me, and they all whisper that they're sorry to me, why are they sorry I don't know. Fixing yourself alone is a patchwork job but with friends and family the job is easier to get done.

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I'm so sorry it's taking me this long to update(pic of Sage up top). School has been so hectic lately. But hopefully within the next couple weeks school will slow down a lot more than it has been. Thank you to everyone who's been patiently waiting for an update!! I hope you guys enjoyed this chapter I'll start working on the other chapters as soon as I get another break!!!!