This World of Mine

Trying Too Hard

I think i try too hard. That's why the words don't come right when I told you "I love you" but all you heard was "Hey how are you?"

I think I try too hard because when you make a flirty joke my body goes to a 110 degrees and the little people in my brain go into overdrive trying to find the right thing to say.

I think I try too hard because I feel sad and relived when I'm not around you anymore. Sad because you're not here but relived because my heart can beat like everyone else's and my the little people in my brain can go home and talk about their stressful day at work. Can eat dinner with their and give their tiny wives a tiny kiss and get prepared to deal with my crap life tomorrow.

I think I try too hard because I'm getting less excited to be who I think you want me to be.

I think I try too hard because I saw you trying to get back together with her in he hallway today.

I think I try too hard because when I went over your house she was their and she told you that she doesn't like you hanging around me.

I always thought if this ended I would have at least gotten a chance and the work all the little people would've been doing wouldn't have been for nothing. I thought if this thing ended we would've at least stayed friends.

At least I now I don't have to try so hard anymore.