This World of Mine

Too Dark

I believe in justice, fairness, and equality
I put my right hand over my heart and repeat the mantra like a song.

"I'm black and I'm proud and I don't care who frowns"

I used to chant it just when I needed a self esteem boast after dudes who look like you won't date you because you're too dark or when white people put you in a box and hang it on you like a noose. As a black women you crave a freedom that people just don't give you. You're black is beautiful but for some reason people can't understand that. It's evident with every "you're pretty for a black girl" or " Are you mixed?". You have to be mixed with something. You're too black to be this pretty. When you walk in front of some men you can see their minds exploding, thinking "this isn't what society told me". You see that beautiful dark black man, gorgeous as can be but he told that beautiful dark black women shes "too dark" even though he's the same, but the darkest thing about him isn't his skin or the fact that he just disrespected his kin but the heart from within. It's been tainted by stereotypes and horrible tv depictions of what beauty "really" is. You tell to yourself "I don't want no self hating black man who don't want you" and even though it may be true you still feel bad deep down inside that a man who shares your outside believe you're skin just isn't right and feels you're too ugly to be with ever in his life.