Today was the day. The day I was finally gonna meet Shawn, the love of my life, my reason to exist, my future husband, um..yeah
I was really excited, happy, but also scared at the same time. Although Ryan had reassured me, the same thoughts still floated around in my mind. What if Shawn really would hate me? What if he was a completely different person to how he's portrayed online? What if he didn't give me a second glance? After all, in my eyes, he's my world, but to him I'm just a fan, another screaming girl in the crowd, he'd never notice me. Damn, being a fangirl sucks.
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Me: AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAGGGGGHHHH
Me: btw that was me screaming, crying and hyperventilating all at once
Me: TODAY
Me: ITS HAPPENING TODAY
Me: IM GONNA MEET SHAWN
Me: also I'm pretty excited to meet you, you seem cool
Me: yo where you @
Ryan: hey, sorry I was busy, I have a lot to do today :\
Me: yeah! Me too, are you excited for the concert??
Ryan: very, what time are you gonna get to the place?
Me: I'm literally just leaving my house now, it takes a couple hours to get there, so I'll probably be there around 4. Yourself?
Ryan: I'm here already actually haha
Me: the concert doesn't start until 7 lmao
Ryan: I just wanted to look around London a lil bit, I don't come here often
Me: coolcool, you'll be outside the arena once I get there right? I can't wait to meet you, this is so cool
Ryan: uh yeah probably :)
Me: I'm on a train right now and it's taking every ounce of strength within me not to scream with excitement
Me: like I'm literally shaking right now
Ryan: I bet Shawn feels the same way
Me: I wish, he doesn't even know I exist
Ryan: he followed you, so technically he does, and he's meeting you today, so he'll definitely know then
Me: I just squealed because you reminded me of the Shawn follow and several people gave me weird looks
Ryan: hahah
Ryan: what do you think will happen when you meet him?
Me: the first thing I'm gonna do is run up to him and give him a huge ass hug, because he's helped me through so much and I'm incredibly grateful for that, his music makes me such a happy person you have no idea. I want to have a really cute pose, but I still haven't decided what to do yet :\\ and I'm buying a muffin as soon as I get there and I'm gonna give it to him, along with this Harry Potter shirt I bought him, and um, I wanna kiss his cheek.
Me: o and I really wanna touch his hair because it looks so soft and fluffy adkkfkffn
Ryan: I'm laughing so hard right now omygod
Me: well, that's what I want to happen, but none of it will
Ryan: why not?
Me: as soon as I see him I'll probably just clam up and not speak or even look at him, I doubt I'll even get one word out
