The Suicide Note

[18]

Max's POV

Quietly I stood outside Connor's door. Am I really going to do this? Yep. I quietly knocked on the door. I was thinking about leaving, when the door opened. I saw a tired Connor, in sweatpants. No shirt. Oh God...

"H-Hey." I said, nervously.

"You okay?" I knew he was concerned.

"I, um, I had a nightmare, and I, um, I was,-"

"Come in."

I walked into his room with no hesitation.

He quietly closed the door. "Wanna talk about it?"

I sat on his bed. He sat next to me and I told him everything I remembered.

"That's... Wow."

"I know."

The silence was, awkward.

"Stay here." (For tonight, I can show you, what my dreams are made of, sorry, Sleeping With Sirens is <3)

"W-What?!"

"You heard me." Connor caressed my cheek. I didn't want to go anywhere.

"Are you sure?" He was being, too nice.

"Yeah, I don't want to be woken up again because of another nightmare." There's the Connor I know.

"Ass."

"You love me."

I smiled and layed down next to Connor. He wrapped me tightly in his arms. His breathing swept into a steady rhythm. Mine followed suit.

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"Max."

No.

"Max."

Go away.

"MAX."

Fuck off you sack of shit.

"FOR THE LOVE OF GOD (will you bite your tongue, before I make you swallow it, sorry, BMTH <3) WAKE THE FUCK UP!"

I slowly opened my eyes, glaring at the face in front of me.

"Connor, you and your fuck-face better have woken me up for something important."

"If you call not being caught by your brother important, then yes."

"Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck! Where is he?!"

"I think he's in the shower, but, I don't know."

I threw the covers off of me and ran to the door.

"Bye fuck-face."

Quickly I ran to my room, trying not to make noise. Within the safety of my own walls, I flopped onto my bed. I looked at the clock. 6:21. Why would Ryan get up this early? I knew my dad and Claudia had already left. They had left an hour ago. I ran to my closet and grabbed black ripped skinnies, a black leather jacket, my black vans, and my shirt that said, 'When did the diamonds leave your bones?'. (again, BMTH <3) Spying? What are you, four? Quickly I got dressed and put a beanie over my mess of hair.

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Currently, I was hiding behind a bush, watching Ryan.

"What are you doing?" I whispered to myself.

He was standing on the corner. Hooker. Constantly, he would check his phone.

"What the hell?"

A man was slowly approaching him. Within the next few minutes, a bag was handed to Ryan. I watched as Ryan gave the 'mystery man' a wad of cash.

"Please don't tell me this is what I think it is..."

Ryan quickly walked past the bush where I was hiding. He was heading home, I followed at a distance.

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Somehow I managed to fall back to sleep when I got home. I groaned and looked in the mirror. I looked, like an emo zombie... NAILED IT. I walked to Ryan's room and barged in. He was on the phone.

"Max! Go away."

"We need to talk."

He rolled his eyes and continuted talking on the phone. I grabbed the phone and hung up.

"What the hell!?"

"We need to talk." I repeated.

"About what!?"

"About how I saw you buy drugs this morning!" I whisper-yelled.

Ryan was pissed. "You don't know what you're talking about."

"Don't I?" I walked to where his jacket was and took the small bag from the pocket.

He quickly snatched it from my hands.

"You don't know what you're talking about."

"Really?! I know what cocaine looks like!"

"Just leave!" He yelled.

My brother wasn't much of a yeller, but I knew how he got when he was pissed.

"Either you tell dad by the end of today, or I tell him myself."

I slammed the door and walked into the kitchen.

"THERE'S NO FUCKING FOOD!" I screamed.

Johnnie came running into the kitchen.

"What the hell?! Did dionsaurs kill someone?!"

"Use your fucking brain!" I screamed.

Everything was silent.

"Sorry." I muttered before running to my room.

Within the walls, the only sound was the music I had started to play. Drugs. Fucked up. Worthless. My beautiful thoughts were disrupted by the sound of my phone.

Gabriel: You busy?

Me: Nah, what's up?

Gabriel: Meet me at Popcorn Park.

I grabbed by skateboard and walked into the living room, where Connor was.

"If anyone asks, I went out with a friend."

"Where are you-"

I slammed the door and skated to Popcorn Park.

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This was really shitty. I'm sorry. Longer chapter soon. Popcorn Park is pretty cool tho XD

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