So I got five more months in school before the summer and I will be a high school sophomore. I have had a crazy freshmen year. So I was walking home and I saw some of Markus homeboys following me. I started running but I wasn’t fast enough and one of them grabbed me. He took me to the apartment complex and took me in one of the apartments and raped me. I couldn’t fight back because he was so strong and he was bigger than I was crying and yelling. He slapped me and said, “Shut the fuck up bitch. You will learn not to fucking diss my nigga Markus like that ever again”. He put some duct tape over my mouth. He kept raping me. My hands were tied up I thought he was going to kill me. I didn’t know what to do. The only thing I could think about was if I was going to see my family aging and how much I hated Markus Blackmon. After about 4 hours he finally let me go. I fell down the steps and this lady seen me lying on the ground and helped me up. She asked, “What happen to do you. Your wriest is purple like you were tied up.” I told her I was ok and asked could I use her phone. She ran in the house and grabbed her phone and handed it to me. I called my mom and told her to come and get me. When I got home my mom started asking me a million questions. I looked at her and said, “Ma I’m tired I just want to go get a shower and go to sleep. Please mama please don’t ask me any more question.” “Ok sweetheart I won’t ask you anymore questions”, my mom said hugging me. I went up to my room, went into my bathroom and sat in my tub and just sat there in some hot ass water. The next day I went to school and found Markus and rammed his ass into the fucking locker. “What the fuck are you doing Mo?” he said scared. I replied, “Who the fuck did you send to fucking rape me you bitch ass nigga”? “I told him to scare you not rape you”, he said feeling bad. I said mad as fuck, “You dumb ass bitch made immature ass fuck nigga who ain’t ever going to get no ass in your life. Sent someone to scare me? What is his name and you better tell me now or I will fuck your life up” I said with a serious look on my face. “It’s David Smith. He is in Mr. Wright’s class right now”, he said so scared. I walked to Mr. Wright’s class and as soon as I walked in there I seen him. I said, “Buenos Dias Senor Wright, may I see David Smith for a second please?” “Si, you may.” Mr. Wright said. I took him outside the classroom and said, “Look here little boy. I know you’re older than me but you’re a little boy to me. I just want to know something why the fuck did you rape me? You know what don’t answer that question because it’s going to make me want to kick your ass. Did you wear a condom? Please tell me you did. Why the hell are you so damn quiet?” He looked down at the floor and said, “I didn’t use one”. I truly wanted to kill that boy. I replied so fucking furious “What the fuck you mean you didn’t use one. Are you just dumb or stupid as hell nigga?” He just looked at me and said, “Look I’m sorry but look I was mad at the time because you dissed my little nigga like that I didn’t know it was going to go that far”. I wanted to kick my foot off in his ass but I didn’t. I said, “If I am pregnant you better be there for your child because you the fuck nigga that did it. I don’t want to be with you just want you to take care of your responsibility. That’s it do you fucking understand me?” He looked at me and was like, “Yea I understand what you saying.” Then I walked back in Mr. Wright’s class and said, “Thanks Mr. Wright and David remember what I said.” I walked out and went to my next class with Tiffany and Jennifer. It was science class, my favorite subject. Mrs. Mars was the weirdest teacher at the school and her last name was ironic because it was the name of a planet and she was a science teacher. Her students always asked her was that why she wanted to be a science teacher? She always said, “That was one of the reasons and the other reason was that my father was a scientist”. I thought that was cool because if your dad was a scientist you could go into labs and stuff. I was like a teacher pet back then. It kept me out of trouble sometimes. Until the worst day of my life came to life, it was 4 months after I was raped and I went to the doctor and he came back and said, “Miss. Brown did you know that you are pregnant?” My heart drop to my feet, I felt so sick. I told him that I was raped 4 months ago so that was when I got pregnant. I asked him, “Why didn’t I have the symptoms of a pregnant woman”? “It’s rare but some people don’t know they are pregnant until the go into labor or go to a doctor who checks and see”, he told me. I just put my head in my hands and started to cry. I’m only 15 about to be 16 and I’m pregnant. I told my mom and she said, “Stop crying, it’s not your fault. You were raped. You didn’t plan it like some fast tail girls your age”. I went to school the next day and found David. He was like, “Hi, Monica. What’s wrong with you? Why are you crying”? I didn’t know what to say. I just kept crying. “Answer me please Monica”, he said about to cry. David Smith is the biggest dude on the football and he had this tough guy mentality. Once you got him alone he was a big teddy bear. He told me he was so sorry and if he could go back in time and never do it he would. I did something I never did a day in my life. I forgave him and then I got up the courage to tell him. I said, “David I went to the doctor yesterday and the doctor said I was 4 months pregnant. Your 16 about to be 17 and I’m 15 about to be 16.How are we going to raise a baby. I can’t get a job because I pregnant.” Then he said something that touched my heart and I would never forget it. He said, “You weren’t going to get a job because I wasn’t going to let you. I’m going to get a job to take care of you and my child. I know you said you don’t want anything to do with me but I have to take care of you. I have to man up and take responsibility of my actions. I will quit football if I have to and I love football. But my child and you come first.” I couldn’t believe he said that. The boy who raped me and got me pregnant just told me he will quit football to take care of me and my well our child. I was so confused; I just didn’t know what to do. My heart was beating so fast. He was standing there because he was about to go to lunch. We had the same lunch period. Fourth lunch was the worst. The food was cold and the lunchroom staff was mean. I was going into the line and I saw that we had fish sticks. I hated fish stick, they were gross. The problem was that I didn’t have any money to buy anything else to eat. Then Markus came up to me and said, “You’re getting bigger. You need to go on a diet.” I wanted to say dumb ass I’m pregnant but I didn’t. David came behind me and said, “Don’t you hate fish sticks. Here two dollars, go get you some pizza or something”. He smiled and I took the money. I really think I’m crazy because I think I’m falling for the boy who raped me. I can’t help it. So I went and got me some pizza and some juice. I went to see where Tiffany and Jennifer where so I can tell them that I was pregnant. They are my best friends so I had to tell them. I saw them in the back of the lunchroom at our table. They asked, “Monica your stomach is getting big. What’s going on?” I looked down and then said, “I’m pregnant”. They looked like they just seen a ghost or something. I said, “Say something please”. They just looked and said, “Do your mom know that you’re pregnant”. I said, “Yea she knows and I know yall don’t want to be my friends anymore because I’m pregnant.” I was about to get up and walk off crying but they stopped me. “We are best friends for life. Through thick and thin we are going to be there for you. So who is the father?” Jennifer asked. “David Smith”, I said looking away. “7th grade David Smith, Linebacker David Smith, sexy, big, tall, David Smith?” Tiffany and Jennifer said. I laughed and said, “Yea.” Two seconds later he came up two the table and said, “Hey girls, how are yall doing. Mo is you going to introduce me to your friends?” I smiled and said, “That’s Tiffany and that’s Jennifer. And yall know my baby daddy David”. They started smiling then I was like, “What’s up David”? “Can I talk to you alone for a second please?” he asked like it was something important. We walked out the lunchroom and he said, “Monica I want to be with you. I know what I did was wrong but I have a responsibility now and I want us to be a family.” I was so surprise I thought he was going to say something totally different. Then I said, “My mom knows I was raped so if I tell her you’re the father of my child she will trip”. “Don’t tell her just say I’m your new boyfriend and I know about what happened and I still want to be with you”, he said with a smile on his face. Ok yea I know I’m sounding really crazy because at first I want anything to do with him now we are about to start talking. I just want to have a real family and didn’t want my child to go through a broken family. He turned into a totally different person. So let’s get back to my story. So David and I started talking and Markus was mad as hell. He walked up to me and said, “So you and David are dating now huh? Even though he raped you? How desperate are you?” David came out of nowhere and said, “You can get the fuck off my girls case and it was your fault because you know how I am. Monica ain’t desperate. Plus I gave her something you couldn’t ever give her because you know you got a problem in that department.” I started laughing so hard. Then the baby kicked for the first time. When we walked off I told him that the baby just kicked. He put his hand on my stomach and felt the baby kick. He started crying and then he said, “Monica I want you to meet my mom. I told her all about you and know about what I did. So what do you say?” I didn’t know what to say. I finally said, “I will like that”. So after school his brother Jake came and got us. He said, “So you Monica, I glad to meet you. Bro you found a good girl. So how many months are you?” I said, “I glad to meet you too and I’m 4 months. I can’t wait till next month when I find out if I’m having a girl or boy.” “I hope it’s a girl because it’s nothing but boys in this family. I have a little boy he is 3 now. He is at the house so you can meet him”, Jack said. We pulled up to his house and it was pretty. They had a big front and backyard, a garden in the front and back. His mom came out the front door and said, “You must be Monica. Welcome to our home. I know I might be scaring you a little but I never thought David was going to ever have a girlfriend. Well now he has a girlfriend and a baby on the way. When are you due”? I didn’t know what question to answer first so I just dived into them. I said, “You remind me of my mom. She does the same thing. I’m due on September 21.” We walked in the kitchen and his mom made my favorite foods. I said, “OMG I see all my favorite foods”. His mom laughed and said, “Yeah they are mines too. I like you”. I smiled and David grabbed my hand and sat me in front of the TV. He told me that he will be back because he had a gift for me. I wondered what it could be. I smelled Mac and Cheese, Collards Greens, Lemon Pepper Chicken, Dirty Rice, and Jiffy Mix Cornbread. Then David came in the front room with a little box in his hand. I said, “What is that David”? He didn’t say anything so I got scared. He opened the box and it was a ring in it. Then he said, “Monica this is something I never thought I would give someone. Monica it’s a promise ring. I promise I will be with you for the rest of our lives. I will never hurt you ever aging. Do you accept it?” I looked at it and said, “How much did it cost”? Why was that the first thing that popped out my mouth but it did. He smiled and said, “It’s real if that’s what you want to know but will you accept my promise ring?” I looked him in his eyes and said, “Yes, I will accept your promise ring.” You should have seen his face it was priceless. His mom yelled, “The food is done, let Monica fix her plate first”. We said, “Ok”. I walked in the kitchen and got a plate. Then I said, “I’m done fixing my plate. Yall can come fix yall’s plates now.” They got up and made their plates. Then his mom said, “Everybody grab someone’s hand so we can say grace. Who would like to do it”? I was like, “I will do it. Ok everybody bow you heads and close your eyes. Lord God. Thank you for David and his family, thank you for my unborn child, my family, my friends, and my new family. Amen.” I went to work on that plate. I was so good and my baby ate most of it. I had like 5 plates of food. So a few weeks went by and I went to David’s locker and he said, “Baby you know your doctor’s appointment is tomorrow right?” I was thinking damn he remember. Then he was like, “Oh yea baby, guess what”! I said, “Yeah I remember about my doctor’s appointment tomorrow and what”? “I got the job at the library. I will be making 9 dollars an hour. Aren’t you happy”? I couldn’t do anything but hug him and say, “I’m so proud of you baby!” Then all a sudden I saw Tiffany running down the hallway crying. “Monica we have to go. Michael just got shot. He didn’t come to school today because he had a doctor’s appointment today”, said Tiffany crying so hard. David’s brother was outside and he took us to the hospital. We went to the room and he was just lying there. I started crying and said, “Why Michael he don’t mess with no one. When I find out who did this, I’m going to hurt them.” Then the monitor stops beeping. I was like, “What is going on. Someone call the doctor.” The doctor comes in and says, “He lost too much blood. Unless we find a match right now, he won’t make it.” David asked, “What is his blood type?” The doctor said, “He is O+, so the donor has to be O+ too.” Then David rolled up his sleeve and said, “I’m O+, I will give blood. Michael is like a little brother to me.” So the doctor took David out the room. When they came back the doctor had the blood bags in his hands. Michael’s mom hugged David and said, “Thank you so much David. My son is going to be ok because of you.” David said, “You are so welcome Mrs. Adams. I would do anything for Michael.” The monitor started back beeping and his heart started back beating. Then he woke up and asked, “Where am I? Why is all this stuff hooked up to me? Why is everybody like someone died?” Then I said, “Michael you got shot so they rushed you to the hospital that is where you are. You are hooked up to a monitor to keep up with your blood pressure and heartbeat and you needed medicine so they hooked you up to an IV line. Your heartbeat flat lined because you needed blood to stay alive and no one but me, your mom, and David could give you blood. But I couldn’t because I’m pregnant and your mom couldn’t because her iron was too low. So David gave you blood.” Michael started crying and said, “You saved my life but why”? David looked up and said, “Because you got to meet your god daughter.” Everybody looked at me and said, “You’re having a girl”? I said, “Yeah I just found out today.” Everybody hugged me and Michael said, “I’m so happy for you and David. So do yall know what her name is going to be”? “We are going to name her Deanna Renée Smith”, I said with a big smile on my face. So then Michael’s mom went out to see when Michael would be getting out of the hospital. It was just David, Tiffany, Michael, and me in the room. It got so quiet so I sparked up a conversation like I always do. I said, “So how you feeling Michael”? “I’m feeling fine just ready to go home and go to sleep”, he said laughing. His mom walked in the room with the doctor. We all start looking at them. The room gets super quiet. Then the doctor says, “Michael everything is looking good. If you do ok overnight you will be out of here tomorrow morning”. Michael smiled and said, “Ok thank you. I have a question; I have to go to football camp in July. Will the bullet hole be healed in time for football camp”? The doctor looked up, smiled and said, “Yes it should be healed before football camp.” Then he walked out and everybody hugged Michael. “Monica, Tiffany, and David, it’s getting late. Yall should go on home, so yall have school tomorrow”, said Michael’s mom said. We said, “Yes ma’am we are about to go.” We got on the elevator and when we got outside David’s brother was outside waiting. He dropped Tiffany off, then me and then David and his brother went home.
