MUTE GIRL- BECAUSE I'M MISSING YOU

Outraged

CH5 

Sakura's P.O.V

The one person who cared about me more than anyone, the last person I loved with all my heart-

"You've won... Sakura" Now, I had broken him, now I had broken Night too. I had pushed him too far; he shouldn't have been the one to apologize like this.

" I'm sorry..." he said facing me.

"... I wont touch you again, I won't ask you to look at me either nor forgive my sins. I'll stay away just as you've always wished and I won't let anyone else bring harm to you. I'll let you live the life you choose but..."

The Night I knew was so kind and caring. He loved me once and still did to this very day.

"...But know this, never once have I ever hated you Sakura..." he lowed his eyes, his voice become a whisper

Even though I gave him a cold shoulder he was still near me, still close, still waiting. He never wished to hurt me, he never wished to make me feel lonely and he tried his best to stay by my side but I pushed him away.

"...Just as I did in the past, selfishly I still love you... remember that, that's all I ask." He concluded with his crystal eyes on me. A rush heat passed my face and I felt myself blushing, then teary.

After my mother died I locked myself away- not literally but emotionally. I wouldn't see anyone or talk to anyone. I locked away my voice- the once thing Night cherished. He simply wanted me to speak to him, to hear that I was well but I couldn't say. Selfishly I couldn't tell him. In a way I wanted him to know that I wasn't okay and by silencing myself I knew he would under. I was wrong- I was selfish because even when he did, I still remained cold.

I looked at him, I never said a word to him, I simply watched him just as he had been watching over me these passed years. What words could justify my actions? What words could express what I felt now? An apology would've been an insult and a 'thank you' would've been too selfish.

"Night..." I spoke as I held his strong hands onto my lap. I shook my head fighting with all my might not to cry and gazed into his stunned eye.

"... let me love you but don't love me... please"

For as long as I had known myself there was never a time where I was out of words, a time where I felt unsure of myself- of my thoughts or feeling unless I was with Night.

He was and still is a very precious person to me and someone who can never be replaced. Yes I understood he loved me but I never deserved that love.

I took his face into my hands and compared it to the last time I had touched it. It was different. Gently I pulled it in closer to mine, making sure I had his permission to continue with my actions. We were only centimetres apart, I wasn't sure I was doing the right thing but this needed to be done for me to know for sure.

My gaze transferred from his lips to his eyes the closer I got... I moved up the last half inch so our lips could touch. Softly. Lovingly. I tasted him for last and first time.

I had pushed Night away and thrown him out when he needed me the most. I could- should never be forgiven for that and after that kiss I knew what my answer to him was.

.....

Akira P.O.V

It was late in the afternoon and school was out. Instead of heading home though today I wanted to pay a special visit to a 'friend' and believe me when I say this- anger could not cover all I felt.

I stormed to the school gymnasium and slammed the double doors open as hard as I could. I was beyond humanism; no words could do me justice. I wanted nothing more than Night dead.