No Access From Love

Chapter 2

The night had gone so fast but yet it still felt like it was slow.

I had a dream last night, we went to the foster home and i got a new brother.

I wanted to believe it was a dream but i had to wake up in reality and realize, that it was true. Was it so wrong that i didn't even want to wake up, i wanted to keep living the life of an only child, me and only me. It sound selfish i do admit, not wanting to adopt a kid who might have gone some troubles throughout his life but it was more selfish for my parents to not think about me. What I was going to feel.

I finally got out of bed, walking up to the front door leaving my bed a mess. I reached for the door knob but i hesitated for a moment. I know when i walked out there, my life will change, its not going to be the same as it was. I'm living a different life starting from now. I will see HIM today, tomorrow, the next month even the next year after that and that and so on.

I slowly pull my hand away from the door knob, I'm not ready for this new life yet but i had to do it. I reached back for it, for the knob and opened the door quietly. I can't avoid them, i won't be able too  I thought to myself. I take a step, small winds blowing against my side, I inhaled deeply and looked around.

There was no one, they probably started breakfast already so i headed to the dining room. 

"Hey honey, good morning." Mom said.

I didn't reply. I looked around the dining room, looking for Zach and in just seconds I found him. He was sitting in the corner of the table. He caught me looking at him and our eyes met, he shyly waved his hand at me and smiled but I ignored and headed to a chair. 

" Mom, could i head out this afternoon?" I asked.

"Who you going with?" She replied.

" Just me." 

I wanted to have some alone time to myself. To clear my head from this. I wanted to be in a place where there was no Zach around because I just couldn't take it anymore.

"Honey, why don't you take Zach with you?" Dad said, "So that you're not as lonely."

I looked at Zach and he was shocked as me as he shot up his head quickly at my dad.

What?! Did he just really say that?! No, no, no. The reason why I'm going to go alone is to avoid Zach and he mentions bringing him!

That was the thing I wanted to say, to yell to at my dad.

But I couldn't.

He is my dad and I can't disrespect him even if I'm filling up with anger inside. 

I had no choice so I said..

"Sure."

A/N
Sorry if this was short, I'll try to make it longer next time.☺