Lost Without You

3

Present day

Harry's POV:

I've been sitting here right by her side for the past 12 hours. Listening to her heart monitor slowly beep. I've been holding her hand, the one that had a little birth mark shaped like a heart. I always told her that she was so outgoing, and that she always wore her heart on her sleeve, or her hand really. I put my thumb over the little mark rubbing it slowly over. Her skin is cold. She needs to warm up, when she wakes up she'll never forgive me for letting her freeze.

I quietly stand up and walk over to the nurses station.

"Umm, excuse me? Can I get another blanket for Lilly? She's cold and when she wakes up she won't be very happy with me, so can I get a blanket?" I fumble for my words, shifting my feet. She's going to wake up.

The nurse gives me a sympathetic smile and nods her head, "Sure, I'll be right back with it hun." And with that she disappears around the corner only to appear a few seconds later with a few thin blankets tucked neatly under her arm.

"Just let me know if you need anything else." she sweetly adds. I mumble some sort of thanks in response and quickly return to Lilly. I take one of the blankets, open it up, and lay it over her sleeping body.

"There that's better isn't it?" I ask her. I look down at her and wait for her eyes to flutter open, just like they do every morning. I sit down in the place I had been sitting and I pick her hand up again. I closed my eyes and wrapped my fingers tightly around her hand, and for a second it felt like all the times before when her hand would slip into mine.

I brought her hand up to my lips and with a shaky breath I whispered, "Please come back to me, let me feel your touch again, let me feel your kiss again," the tears start forming in my eyes, "don't you ever leave me. I'm not letting you go, I'm never going to give up on you so don't you dare give up on me." my voice cracks and I break down into sobs.

My mind travels to a this morning, holding her hand in front of my face, sobs raking through my body.

12 hours before:

I yawn as I stir in our bed. Sun just peaking through the curtains, I turn over to check the clock, just about 7am. I spin to my other side to go and bury my head in the side of my lovely sleeping beauty's hair, but find an empty spot next to me. I sit up in bed looking around the room. Where could she be? Probably just making some coffee in the kitchen. I push back the covers and swing my feet off the bed.

Walking down to the hall I peak my head into the kitchen expecting her to be in her usual underpants and long shirt that went just below her ass. God, I love it when she wears that. She's not there. I wander around out apartment and finally reach the bathroom. The light it on so she must be getting ready for a shower or going to use the loo. I creak open the door while mentally reminding myself to get the hinges oiled, but my heart stops when I see outstretched fingers curled on the floor.

I pushed the door open and I scream in terror as I see the love of my life lying on our bathroom floor. Immediately I drop to her side.

"Lilly! Lilly! Wake up! You hear me? You wake up right now!" I bend over putting my ear next to her ear I can't hear of feel anything. I scramble up to get my cell phone in the next room over. My fingers shaking uncontrollably as I type in 911.

"Hello? 911, what is your emergency?" the voice on the other end calmly says.

"Please help!" I practically shout into my phone. I look around the bathroom and see an empty bottle of pills on the floor. "My girlfriend... my girlfriend... I think she just tried taking her life. Please get an ambulance over here now. She needs to get to a hospital!"

After telling police officer our address I hung up.

I'm running my fingers through my hair. How did I let this happen? When did she do this? Why did she not talk to me about it? All these question bubbled up in my head and continues to bubble even when the paramedics knocked on the door. I quickly unbolted it and let them in.

"What happened? Tell me everything that happened." one medic questioned me.

"I-I-I-I don't know," I stutter, "I woke up a few minutes ago and she wasn't in bed, I searched the apartment for her and found her on the floor with a bottles of pills next to her." I explain.

Just behind the paramedic I saw Lilly, her head tilted to the side and her mouth slightly hanging open, people surrounding her pushing her on a gurney out the door.

"Please make her wake up! Please help her!" I shout, tears streaming down my face as I run out the door slamming it behind me and running after the medics. I didn't even bother to lock the door. I just needed to be with her.

"Sir are you going to be riding in the ambulance?" a woman asked me.

Too numb to answer I simply nodded my head and hopped into the back of the ambulance. I try and see passed all of the people surrounding Lilly, but they are too busy doing CPR or whatever, I didn't know. The sirens were so loud and my tears wouldn't stop. I covered my face in my hands hoping this is all just a bad dream.

She's just sleeping. She's just sleeping. Oh god please let her be sleeping. Or let this just be a bad dream and I'll wake up with her next to me.

I pinch my arm, and feel a sharp pain travel through my arm, I squeeze my eyes tight and open them. The sirens were still there, the medics were still there and Lilly. My Lilly was still slipping away from me. This is no dream. I'm living my worst nightmare and I don't know what do to. She's my everything. Ever since that first kiss in the bar that first night to the good night kiss last night, she's the center of my everything and I can't afford to lose her.

She's just sleeping. She's just sleeping. She's just sleeping. She's just sleeping...

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