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as i walked towards my house i could feel my heart beating faster , my limbs shaking and my palms began to get sweaty . my brain was telling me to run while i still had the chance but i couldn' t bring my self to do it, i had to go home .

the big red door looked the same as everyone else's but if you looked close enough you could see little scratches in the paint where it had been neglected . i reached up to the handle and pushed the heavy door open just enough for me to slip inside , as soon as i'm in i close the door quietly , the small strip of light disapeared and the hallway was thrown in to darkness . silently i creept upstairs to my room, a dull place with its old curtains and small broken  wardrobe, i sat on my small metal bed and it groand like an old mule. I lay my head on the pillow and fell into an uneasy sleep plagued with nightmares .

i panted as i sprinted through the woods being chased by a shadowy figure, unable to catch my breath i felt light headed and tripped over a tree root , the shadowy figure approched me laughing its hand outsteched ready to grab me...

i awoke abrutly , confused as a bright light shone in my eyes i could hear someone shouting , i blinked rapidly trying to focus my eyes. a figure was leaning over me yelling , i could smell alchol on its breath. the shouting kept on getting louder but i coundn't figure out what it was saying , suddenly i felt a sweaty hand around my neck and my body being thrown across the floor , the figure stood over me an empty bottle in one hand the other ragging my hair , i felt my head hit the wall and warm sticky blood drip from behind my ear , my head was banging and my vision was blury but the sleepyness had left me and i realized what was happening.

he was home from the pub and he was angry , i was ragged up by the arm and then kicked in the shins so as i fell again. my body hit the floor with a thud and my arm went numb , i tried to scream but he kicked my stomach and winded me the only thing i could wisper was " daddy please stop" 

2.

indicating that something is confined to the specified subject or recipient.

"he is answerable to Parliament alone"

i have no idea what the secound  one means but the first one thats alone. when nobody is present in your life .i know that feeling because ever since i could remeber i've been alone and no matter what people say i will always be alone.

10 years earlier