Stumbling In Your Footsteps

Death Is Such A Peaceful Sorrowful Thing

⚠JOSH'S POV⚠

After catching up with Manson I then started my way back to my new home. My thoughts were jumbled I don't know what I want anymore I just feel like a time bomb that's going to explode.

My thoughts were also consumed by Ryan-Ashley I made my way towards a dark road on the highway that I hadn't been on in a long time. After driving for at least 2 hours I made my way to my destination I hopped off my bike grabbing the beautiful lilies that were Ryan's favorite I went up your the old willow tree laying down the flowers this is where she was buried.

Right where I put her before she died. I loved her so much and I didn't even get to tell her. I remembered her smile her laugh when I got the chance to make her laugh. I then laid on my back beside the headstone of her grave and fell into the dark abyss of sleep or so I thought.

                                                                 {Dream}

"Josh" I looked around my surroundings to see that I was still at Ryan's grave but there was alot of fog. "Josh where are you" I heard Ryan's voice again "Ryan" I said "Josh come find me" she said but I couldn't know
where she was I started walking past the tree and walked farther into the forest the fog covering more of my eyesight "There you are" I heard her say and I felt a hand wrapping around my waist.

I turned around and my breath almost got caught in my throat "Ryan" I said breathlessly as I saw her she was wearing one of her tank tops and skinny jeans with her boots and a leather jacket. I raised my hand to her hair I then kissed her with all I had she did the same.

I slightly broke away form her taking her in with my eyes nothing had changed for her she was the same the same Ryan I knew I grabbed her hand gripping it tight almost afraid she would dissappear again.

She put my hood down "How are you here?" I asked her still amazed that she was in front of me "I'm here for you" she said she then walked back to the tree sitting right where her headstone would be. She patted the ground next to her "Come on, sit" she said I then walked towards her sitting on the ground beside her. "You need to let me go Josh" she said taking my hand. But before I could speak she stopped me "You don't get it Josh he needs you" she turned towards me still talking "You both need each other I know you blame yourself for what happened to me don't ok it was meant to be this way" I looked down.

"But why I love you though I-" she cut me off "Yes you can you have to your not happy Josh I know it you need to let him in yes I'm gone but don't stop living continue to live that's what I want you need to let go I love you Josh so much but you need to understand that I'm gone and you can't change that"

"I miss you" I said looking at her with pain in my eyes "I know you do" she said grasping both if my hands "But you have to Josh I will always be with you" some how I didn't see her tske her ring off ths ti gsv eher but she did and she put it in my hand and then gave one final kiss "Good bye Josh"
          
                                                          {Dream Over}

I woke up gasping seeing that it was now night time I turned to see that the lilies were still there everything was just as it was.

I was getting up to leave when I felt something cold in my hands I looked down to see the ring that I gave to Ryan.

It was real the dream was real.