Stumbling In Your Footsteps

Death Is In Love With Us

⚠JOSH'S POV⚠

I woke up my eyes blurry, and my throat scratchy and my whole body felt bruised and achy. my vision finally cleared and I saw that I was on a mattress and Ricky, Ghost and Chris were beside me on the floor while Ryan was standing up in the left top corner of the bedroom.

I suddenly remembered where I was and what had happened. I sat up to get up when Ricky put his hand on my arm I flinched at his touch, Ricky just gave me a look of hurt and concern for my well-being, I then got up my main concern was Ryan-Ashley I had to see what has gone on with her in the past couple of days. "We need to get home I need to see Ryan-Ashley" my mention of Ryan-Ashley caused a look of despair on Ricky's face, but I didn't care at the moment. Ricky had done the ultimate betrayal in my eyes, I love him I really do but this just broke my heart into pieces just knowing what he has done hurts but on the other hand its not his fault I guess I just need some time.

"We need to go now Chris, I need you to go and order our plane tickets" and with that said 4 days later we arrived back home as soon as we arrived at the mansion I quickly got out of the car heading inside quickly, I was greeted by Angelo before he could speak I asked "Where is she?" "In the cellar, Josh I wouldn't go down there its just going to make it worse" he said  "Angelo what do you mean its only going to make it worse? You know what never mind I need to see her" I said walking past Angelo and down stairs to the concrete cellar I headed towards the steel door that was all the way down the hall on the left side I grabbed the key ring that kept most of all the keys on it and that was on the other side of the wall, hanging up on a nail and unlocked the cellar door and headed inside.

I saw Ryan on the bed on the right side of the wall, covered up with blankets and Casper right beside her I came closer to her sitting on her bed watching while she slept until Ryan woke up coughing she had a paper towel in her left hand and brought it to her mouth once she pulled it away  there was blood on the paper towel she looked up at me giving me a small smile I knew what this had meant I now know what Angelo meant by making this worse he knew that the day I woke up seeing Ryan dead and the pain I felt then would be back but this time far more painful. 

Ryan was dying and I couldn't stop it or put her out of her misery I loved her to much she kept a part me that I will never get back I may have my soul back now but I have never felt as hollow as this. She put down the paper towel and I immediately grasped her hand her grip was loose and she cold, just as cold before she died. I knew this was the end. "Ryan its ok for you to let go now you've fought hard enough" I whispered as she turned towards me and then looked down at Casper I then realized I felt no life force in him no more.

"He got sick before me and his heart gave up" Ryan said and then she started coughing again she picked up the paper towel and repeated what had happened seconds before. her voice was hoarse this time "It's gone you know, the bad part of me it must of died the moment you killed the demon. I felt his death it felt as though hit lava was burning my insides and then I got sick Angelo tired his best to make me feel comfortable but I knew I was going to die in a matter of days I knew I had to see you  before that happened and now here you are" She slowly took her right hand and put it up to my neck I bended down again "I'm so sorry Ryan that it has to end like if it was a different way I'd try to fix it" I spoke "Hey shhhh its going to be ok Josh live your happy life with Ricky you'd know I want that for you all I want for you is to be happy" she said "Just know Ryan ill always love you I hop you know that" I told her "Of course I know that ill always know that josh, and your the only one ill ever love" she said tears started to cascade down my face and she rose her right hand up to my face to wipe the tears away I leaned down one last time and kissed her like I never have before .

And just as we separated, just like that she was gone.