It's like diving into a cold pool. You're hesitant at first, the moment that cold water hits every cell in your body becomes heightened. This is how I've always viewed love; Countless times I've watched it fail, on my account, because of others, people around me. It's a terrible misfortune to love as deeply as you can with walls built so strong around your heart. Always putting your feet into the water, but afraid to jump on in. So many times before I've let people become my home, and so many times I've walked through a familiar door to find a vacant house. People have become seasons and as quickly as they set, I blink and they have passed. It's as if I've become an endless list within peoples memories. So please do not be offended if I sleep in your bed but keep a packed bag by the door, the quickest form of a getaway. Always ready to leave before I am left. For I never quite know for sure if you are diving into me, or just testing the waters.
