I wasn't fully aware of you as you tied and double knotted the rope around my ankle and before i could breathe in you were tossing me into the water and to the bottom I sank. I had forgotten what it was like to breathe in, holding my breath for entirely too long. Opening my mouth and no noise could escape, suffocating but not against my will. Silly me for I was fully aware of how to untie these knots, yet I willingly decided to drown. Blue in the face in the name of something more. You loved me, this is where you wanted me, this was where I was meant to be kept right? But after a while I grew sick of my collapsed lungs, grew tired of my muffled screams. With some difficulty I untied the rope around my ankles and swam to the top without looking back and my fucking god how good it felt to feel sunshine warm my body and to be able to breathe and scream and laugh. Never again will I drown in a hopeless love, never again will I compromise the air in my fucking lungs for someone.
