"If I've learned one thing it's that "should have" has no place," she said this with vacant eyes. She told me she's lived many moons wishing for things that never came. And looking back spent far too long broken into pieces she left behind in the grey areas of the past. When things do not happen there is a reason for it. You mustn't be filled with a want, a need, for times that never happened. You get to where you are now by fate she said. Appreciate that chaos that saved its self from you.