Addicted

Introduction

Beep.! Beep.! Beep.! 

My alarm went off waking me up. Fuck.! Bitch did it again. I snatched the plug out the wall and barried my head into the bed more. I had a fuckin hang over and my dumb ass foster mother set my alarm clock for school again. Fuck school.! I don't give a fuck about it anyways. Plus I had a dick appointment with Rhyan anyways.! I rolled back over and went back to sleep.

A couple hours later........

I woke up around 9am and took a long nice hot shower. I shower long as hell the hot water woke me right up and made my hang overs go away. I brushed my teeth than left the bathroom. I didn't bother to get dress since Rhyan was on his way. Rhyan was the leader of the football team. I been fucking him since I was 14 the beginning of our freshman year of high school. He always wanted me to be his girlfriend I don't know why I mean a fucked his friend we even had a 3 sum with him. And I fucked this lame on the team too. He claimed he seen potential in me (I rolled my eyes) I don't know what the fuck that ment. The doorbell rang snapping me out my daze.

Heyy.! I said with a slight smile seeing him as I opened the door. He picked me up kissing me long and hard shocking the fuck out of me. He was so big and strong. He stood at 6'6, 200 something lbs, brown chocolate skin, soft brown eyes, with a nice line up and beard. Rhyan was every girls dream he was so fine. Every girl I know sweated him not me though I didn't give a fuck about his ass.! He had the best dick I ever had in MY LIFE that's why I stayed around with him so long. I need to give it a rest cause he likes me too much to just keep fuckin me. I don't want a relationship.! I can't stand to have my heart broken.!

He sat us on the bed with me still straddling his lap.! "You coming to school today.?" He asked lookin me in the eyes.

No....

Why.? You gone be graduating soon Mo and you needa turn yo life around and get with ya boy.!

Don't start this shit Rhy.! I rolled my eyes getting off him.

Don't start what Monet? Telling yo ass the truth.? Man fuck that somebody needa tell yo ass and let me find out you been doing that shit again Monet I swear to God....

You swear to God what.? I asked cutting him off pissed off folding my arms standing up to him. I was only 5'2 but I didn't care.

Ima fuckin kill you.! He said so coldly placing his forehead on mine and I knew he ment it.

Nigga you ain't gone do shit.! I yelled pushing him off me.

Yeah the fuck right.! Keep playing with me Na'Kole and Ima bus yo ass right upside yo damn head.! He said sternly grabbing me by my ponytail calling me by my middle name. He was the only one I ever let touch me and boss me around like this. It turned me on but made me feel like he cared and that's why I let him.

Why the fuck do you care so much.? I asked really wanting to know the answer.

Because I fuckin lov....(he stopped his self from saying love he never told me before) I fuckin care about yo dumb ass somebody fuckin got too.... But you know what come on you only want dick anyways. He grabbed me by my throat and threw me on the bed. He slid in me so fast and quick without wrapping up. He always used protection but he didn't today and he felt so good. He pulled my hair and pushed all of him in me. "This what the fuck you want.?!" He thrusted deep. "I can't fuckin hear you Na'Kole" he yelled throwin mut leg over his shoulder and going balls deep.

Yessssss.! I managed to get my moans out. I felt like the nigga was killing me he was so deep.

Yesss what.?!

Yesssss daddy.! He flipped me over so I was in doggy style and fucked me so hard and long I couldn't stay up. Every time I fell down he would spread my legs farther pushed my back down to arch my ass more and go deeper so I couldn't move.

Fuck.! He moaned pulling out. He pulled me up pushing me on my knees and I put his dick in my mouth sucking it so good watching his head lean back and toes curl. I don't like sucking dick but I love sucking Rhyans dick.! He picked me up so we could do 69 in the air and he held my waist so tight while he ate me I couldn't focus on sucking dick. He layed me back down and fucked me until the both of us came. He collapsed on my chest and our heavy breathing filled the room. I hated this because I loved it so much I felt like he had all the power over me and I hate being powerless.

He got up and headed to the bathroom standing at the door waiting for me to come threw and get in the shower. We always took a shower together it just felt right. Without saying anything he washed me than his self and we got out.

You hungry.? I asked putting on his t shirt. He just looked at me and smiled.

No I got class in 30 mins and so do you.!

I'm not going.! I sighed.

And why not.? He asked with so much frustration and anger.

Because I still have a hangover and I just don't want to school ain't for me.!

That's not what yo letter said...

What letter.?

Letter from Spellman.! I seen it sticking out your mailbox I thought it was your acceptance letter and I wanted to see it. Your the only dummy I know who can have a 4.6 GPA and get dropped from a school you ain't even go to yet.! They wanted you and you got accepted into they nursing and honors program but because of your attendance  they dropped you. I don't fuckin get you Na'Kole you got so much potential and shot in you and you throw that shit away you rather be out here fuckin and suckin partying every got damn night like your life's a fuckin joke.! Your so beautiful and you don't see it your addicted to the fast life and it's gone kill you. No what one day you really gone wish you listened to me and one day you gone see you really needed me.! He said pissed off on a whole nother level. He threw the letter on the floor and took a deep breath and kissed me on my forehead before walking out.

I sat on my bed holding the letter reading it..... I honestly didn't know what to say as a little girl I always wanted to go to Spellman and attend their nursing program. It was mine and my mothers dream for me. I wiped my fallen year and crumbled the letter up throwing it into the wall. What the fuck does he know.? Fuck him.! I don't even know why he fake care so much. Don't he have a girlfriend anyways.?! I grabbed my henesse bottle off the floor and chugged what was left of it and popped a couple pills. FUCK LIFE.!