Addicted

Chapter 6

I woke up to Rhyan still sleeping it was about 10am. I checked my phone to see I had a 1001 missed calls and messages from A'Mia and Dametrious. I went and took my shower and got dress. I made a quick breakfast, pancakes, eggs, cheese grits, sausage and bacon. I made our plates and Rhyan came down just in time.

GoodMorning beautiful.! He said kissing my cheek.

GoodMorning sleepy head. I said as I gave him a small kiss. Last night made me realize how much I missed him.

It smells good I ain't know you could cook.

It's a lot you don't know about me.

Who fault is that.? Your the one who won't let me in knowing how I feel about you.

I just can't....

Why.?

Please don't start this.

Whatever.

Can you take me home.

Now.?

Why you always runnin from me.? What the fuck do I do that causes you to run out on me.

Nothing now leave me alone.

No we gone talk about this shit. Cause I'm fuckin tired of it you always making me work and run behind yo ass yo I swear to god I'm not doing this shit no more Monet I'm not. You walk out this door and go back to him i promise Ima go on with my life and really act like yo ass don't exist.

Oh my god Rhyan you make it this way.

Why you act like nobody can't fuckin love yo ass.? You got me out here beating niggas up, you got me out here killing niggas, you got me Runin behind yo ass like a lil ass fuckin puppy whatever you say I do, you say jump I say how high. I'm waisting my fuckin life behind you doing whatever the fuck you want and you keep fuckin me over. What the fuck Monét. I know what it is. You want me to beat yo ass.? That's it.? You want me to put my hands on you.? (He pushed me back into the counter) you want me to take advantage of yo ass.? You don't want me to give not one fuck about you.? You want me to tell you how stupid and worthless you are huh.? Yeah that's it.! (He placed his forehead on mine) You want me to treat you like the hoe you is.? You don't want me to love you.! Say that shit than instead of having me looking stupid trying to be a good man to yo dumb ass. I promise you. You walk out that door it ain't shit you got to say to me ever again and I can promise you that.

Oh you ain't got shit to say now huh.? But you wanna cry.

Why are you doing this too me.?

Doing what.? Being real.? Telling yo ass how it really is.? Why the fuck you keep playing me.? Why the fuck you can't accept the fact that somebody loves yo stupid ass.?

Because nobody don't.! I screamed threw my tears........... I never had that. (I feel to the floor crying) I never had anyone to love me. I don't know what love is. Nobody cares about me. I'm nothing.! When I was younger me and my mom was bestfriends I was her girl. We did everything together...... One day when I was 8 years old I was sitting at the bottom of the stairs brushing my dolls hair. I heard my mother and father arguing. I didn't know about what. I got up and I went upstairs peeking around the corner and I seen her on her knees hugging his legs he had his stuff packed in his hands and she was begging him to stay and saying "I'll do it, I'll do it" he had this most evilest smile on his face. He pulled her up and said "Now" she wiped her tears and fixed her self. I ran back downstairs.......... She came and she found me......(I was crying uncontrollably) she said "come on baby doll." And smiled. She took my hand and led me to the bathroom. She ran me a nice hot bath with candles lit around. It smelt like warm vanilla. She washed me up so gentle. I didn't know what was going on. She got me out the bath dried me off and lotioned me down. Taking me back into the bed room. She dressed me in this cute little pink and white pocka dot dress. She let my hair down and brushed it. She did my make up so pretty. And said wait here. My father came into the room and he locked the door after her. He pushed me on the bed and he raped me over and over and over again. I screamed and cried and faught him but he just made it worse. He rapped me a couple times after that and each time was different and much more worse. He left after my tenth birthday my mom wS so mad she beat me. She gave me black eyes and bruises said I was worthless and wasn't good enough. She made me feel like I wasn't shit. She kept beating me she told me how stupid I was she locked me in closets for days without food and water. She made me drink bleach and windex, she started doing heroin and other drugs. one day I went to school after being missing for a month I kept throwing up I had to have my stomach pumped because I almost died and that's when the hospital called cps on her and took me away. When I was getting my things she shot her self in front of me after telling me I was worthless and it was all my fault. I bounced from foster home to foster home. I was raped I was beat up and picked on. I picked up my first bottle when I was 11 years old. I started drinking I just wanted to feel
Numb I didn't wanna feel any pain. I started smoking weed to stay high. I Bearly graduated the 8th grade. All I ever was, was just a piece of meet and been passed around and passed around so when I got to high school hell why not let these niggas pass me around.?! I had two abortions from 14 to 15. And those where rapist babies. Than I came across you and I liked you a lot I liked you so much but I just thought you was gonna hurt me like everyone else to I just wanted to hurt you before you hurted me. But as we started to fuck less and just hang out more I started to let you take control of me. Like I let every other nigga do. I didn't wanna love you I wanted to hate you but I can't I just can't.! I cried harder. I didn't realize he was kneeling down to me crying also. He pulled me into his arms and held me tight.

You never truly know how broken a person is until you try and love them........

Just let me go.! I got up from him and walked out the door.

Where are you going.?

Away leave me alone I don't wanna hurt you any more Rhyan.

Your hurting me by leaving.....

It's better this way.

Why.?!

Because than you won't be hurt any more. I walked threw the gate And he came after me.

Money don't forget what I said.! He yelled standing there like I was crazy. I just told
Him my true life story and I never told anyone that. Nobody ever knew how I got like this or what I went threw. I made my way to the liquor store and bought a couple bottles. I drank all the way till I got to meach house. I knocked on the door until some girl opened up.

Who is you.? I asked finishing my bottle.

Meach girlfriend who are you.? She asked rolling her eyes.

Bitch get out my way.! I yelled pushing her and coming into the house.

What you doing here.? He asked coming from the kitchen. Get the fuck out.! Get out.! He yelled pushing me.

No who is she.?

Yo replacement.

What replacement let me get my stuff.

The stuff I bought.? Naw shorty that's mine. You ain't have shit when I met you get the fuck out.

You bought it for me it's mine.

No it's mine now beat yo fuckin feet.

Move.! I tried to push past him and he threw me into a wall making me hit my head. My vision was blurry but I couldn't get up in time before he started hitting me again. I tried to fight and hit him back but he was way stronger. He banged my head into the wall....

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RHYAN P.O.V.

Get up.! Get up Rhyan.! My thoughts screamed to me. I fucked everything in this house up breaking glasses and throwing shit. I was raging I was so pissed off. I couldn't control myself.

Go get your girl.! My thoughts screamed to me. I grabbed my keys to my Taho and jumped in the truck speeding off. I sped to her house quickly. My mind was racing. I was damn near doing 200 on the express way. I put the car in park and jumped out. I heard screams and cries coming from the house I bussed down the door and ran in. Money was on top of Monét beating her ass she couldn't even be conscious. I threw him into the wall and started beating his ass. He was leaking in blood.

Fuck boy. Ima kill you.! I punched harder with every word.

Hands up or I will shoot.! I heard someone say. I looked back to see officers. I got off of him and went over to Monét she was laying there in her own blood.

Im sorry Rhyan.! She cried. I love you.! She managed to get out. She shut her eyes completely and took her last breath

Monettttttttttttttttt.! I screamed threw my tears . Wake up baby wake up.!

Aye yo bitch.! Money yelled. He crawled over to the gun and let off two shots.