One Less Lonely Girl

Chapter 15~ Adjusting

It's Monday, 3 days since Justin has left, and I haven't been out of the house. I have been acting almost zombie-like, as my mom tells me. I only come out of my room in the morning and at night, and when I do, I don't talk much. I haven't slept since Friday. My eyes are bloodshot, and I lost 10 pounds because I'm not eating as much. Mom is worried about me, and Lacey tries to cheer me up. Mom keeps asking whats wrong, and I just tell her I'm adjusting. The truth is, I don't know whats exactly wrong. Justin hasn't texted me yet, and I guess I miss him, as do other girls when their boyfriends have to leave them, but there's something else. I guess that now that I've finally got to spend time with Justin, something that I've never had before that I have enjoyed so much, its hard going back to what it used to be like. I knew it would be hard, but I didn't care. Justin wouldn't want me to do this to myself. It is 12:30, so I decide to go downstairs and eat lunch. I barely have the strength to get out of bed, but I manage to get downstairs, and into the kitchen. Mom is doing some papers for her job, and Lacey is outside with our dogs. We have 2 dogs, both female. We have a pug and beagle mix named Daisy, and a chocolate lab named Jasmine. Mom looks up, surprised to see me there. I sit down on a high stool at the island in the middle of the kitchen. "Can I have some lunch mom?" I ask. My voice is hoarse, but still strong enough so I can speak clearly with other people. Mom smiled, "Sure! What do you want? You can have anything!" She jumps up from her stool and races over to the pantry and fridge. "Can I please have some root beer, macaroni and cheese, a salad, tortilla chips with salsa, pretzels, strawberries, and a hotdog?" I tell her. She nods, "Got it," and rushes around to prepare my order. I check my phone while I'm waiting, and I see that Justin has texted me. I smile to myself, and open the message. 

"I'm sorry I couldn't text you earlier, but things have been busy since we landed on Friday, so I couldn't really be on my phone. Just wanted to tell you I missed you, and I hope you are doing all right. I am doing this next show for you, so try to watch it online if you can. Go to the website 'www.concertvideosliveHD.com' , and you will be able to watch it there from the cameras that are being recorded on and off stage. Miss you babe ❤️" I blush. He's super sweet. "Omg!! It feel slike forever! I miss you so much! I'll be sure to check out the concert! Just promise me you won't find another OLLG to replace me! ;)" Mom slides the plates in front of me, and I automatically chow down on the first thing I see, which happens to be the macaroni and cheese. I finish eating everything in 30 minutes, then go upstairs to weigh myself. I gained back 5 pounds total, so now I'm 98 lbs. I used to be 90, then I gained more when I ate a bit yesterday, and today, so I plan to get back to my normal by the end of the week, which is 103 lbs. Since I'm bored, I decide to text my other best friend,Emma, to see if she can come over. "Hey whats up? Wanna come over and hang out?" I text her. I turn off my phone, and wait. I have the iPhone 5S, the newest model. "Hey Aus!! I'd love to come over! What time?" My phone dings when she texts me. "Anytime," I reply. She FaceTimes me. "You can come whenever, it doesn't matter I'm not doing anything today," I tell her as soon as we connect. "Ok. How about at 1:30?" she asks. "Thats fine. I got to go shower now, so I'll see you soon," I sigh as I touch my knotty hair. "Ok, see you later," she says before hanging up. I plug in my phone, and go in the bathroom to get ready to shower.

The water is hot, and it feels good. I use Aveda shampoo and conditioner. I like to sing, so I do a lot in the shower. I begin to sing, "Be Alright" by Justin, and my eyes tear up. I start to sob, and this is the first time since the day he left that I have cried about it. I let the tears come, and my body gives in to the sobs that come. I hug myself, and slide against the shower wall to the floor. I sit there, crying, until I run out of tears. I wipe my eyes, take a deep breath, and stand up. I get out of the shower, get dressed, and head downstairs. Emma is waiting outside, and I realize that it is 1:40. When I open the door, and she sees my face, she immediately pulls me into a hug. That's why I love her. She doesn't need to ask questions to find out why your are upset, she just knows, and she's there for you, right away. Emma waits until your okay, then asks, unlike some people who need to know why first. I cry into her shoulder, and lets go and wipes the tears off my face. "Justin?" she says. I nod my head, "Yes, I just miss him, so much." She hugs me again. "How about we go downstairs, and watch some One Tree Hill on Netflix? I know that is you and Brianna's show, but I like it too, so why not? I know it makes you feel better," Emma whispers to me as we walk downstairs together. Brianna hasn't talked with me since Monday, when Justin asked me to be his girlfriend, and personally I'm fine with it. When we get downstairs, Emma turns on the TV and starts the show. She sits down next to me "So, are you ready for school yet? Starts next Wednesday, the 22nd. I don't want to go back ugh," she asks me. I smile. "Nope. I feel ya, I don't want to go back either. Thanks, by the way," I answer back. She looks confused, "Thanks for what?" I hug her, "You have been one of the only people to not talk to me about Justin, and it feels great to be treated normal again." Emma smiles when she pulls away, "You don't have to thank me,  its nothing, really." My phone dings, and I check the notification I got. It's an email from Instagram. I have email notifications on because I don't get many of them. I open the email, and my mouth drops open. "What!? What happened!?" Emma scoots closer and looks at my screen. "Oh my gosh," she whispers. I am in shock. The email is a verification for a checkmark, which means I'm a celebrity.

"Oh my gosh Aus. They want you to make a new account, like, your celebrity one," Emma whispers, still shocked. "I can't believe it, oh my gosh," I say faintly. I click the link, and it takes me to a website. I set up a new account. My username is austradelaney. I put in my info, and I decide to delete the account I have now, and make a private one for me and my friends, not for fans. I submit my info, and it takes me to Instagram. I find myself in the account already, with recommendations for people to follow. I follow Emma first, then all my friends, Justin, and other celebrities. I have 200 followers already, I guess there was a notification sent out or something. I go to my main, and post a photo with an announcement for my followers: "Hey guys! Great news! I just got a verification for a checkmark! Please go follow my account austradelaney ! I have sad news tho. I will be deleting this account, I'm sorry! I'm making a private account for just me and my friends, and I hope you all understand. I was thrown to fame quickly, and I want to keep my life as normal as possible. Love you all so much!!! Thanks for everything!!"  I immediately get likes, and new followers appear on my new account. I have 400 followers now, and the numbers don't stop rising. I turn off notifications for that account. I delete my old account, and make my new private one. The username is aus_delaney. "I'm so proud of you! Congrats Aussie!!" Emma hugs me. "Stooooop, with the nickname," I laugh. "Nope! Sorry Aussie," she giggles. "Love you," I say as I hug Emma. "Love you too boo," she laughs. I get a text from Justin. "Hey Aus! I saw your recent post, and I followed your new account! I'm so proud of you!! Whats the name of your private account? I would like to follow it, if thats ok." I show the text to Emma, who squeals. "Thanks so much! Ya you can follow it. its aus_delaney. Can we FaceTime?" I reply back. Justin requested to follow me, and I accept. He FaceTimes me, so I answer. Emma screams, "AUSSIE I'M GONNA TALK TO JUSTIN BIEBER I'M GOING TO CRY HELP!!!!" I laugh. "Hello Aussie," Justin smirks. "I'm going to slap you if you call me that one more time," I say in a deadpan voice.  He is sitting in a lounge room. Justin smirks again, "Anyway, I am so proud of you babe," he tells me. I blush. "Thanks Jay. I miss the sound of your voice," I say sadly. "Hello people! I'm still here!" Emma waves her arms around, I laugh. "Jay, this is my best friend Emma. Emma, well, you already know who it is," I tell them. "Hi Emma! Nice to meet you," Justin greets in a warm, welcoming tone. Emma can barely speak, "N-ni-nice t-t-to meet you t-to," she responds. Justin laughs, then turns around when he hears the door open, and he smiles. A girl appears on screen, a bit older than me, probably 18 or 19, a little taller than me, with blonde hair, blue eyes, a skinny body, and tons of makeup. She is wearing ruby red lipstick, mascara, and blue eyeshadow. Her hair is long and straight, but it looks like she put waves in it. "Aus, this is someone I want you to meet. This is Emily." 

"She is one of the makeup artists and hair stylists on the tour," Justin tells me. I feel a twinge of jealousy and anger. Emily is wearing short jean shorts and a flowing white sleeveless top. "Hi, you must be Austra, Justin's friend," she smirks. "Umm.. I'm his girlfriend," I answer back. "You do know it is illegal right? For him to date a minor, it is illegal," she replies snakily. "Technically its not because we would have been stopped by now if it was a law. Maybe in some states, but that won't keep me from him," I give her a fake smile, clear trying to annoy her. She glares at me and leans down to Justin, who is sitting on a chair, and whispers something to him. They both laugh, and she plants a kiss on his cheek. "I'll see you later Justin," she says with a giggle as she walks over to the door. "Nice meeting you, Ashley," she smirks before leaving. I knew she called me the wring name on purpose, as if she was trying to tick me off. She did, but I couldn't let it show. "Isn't she great Aus?" Justin asks me. "Ya whatever. Listen, I got to go, k? Bye," I huff. "Ok... bye," Justin says, obviously confused. I hang up.