One Less Lonely Girl

Chapter 19~ Please Wake Up

I stay there, with my hand on his shoulder. I don't know how I can touch him now, but I don't care. I need him to know that I am ok. I need him to know that I'm right here. Suddenly , I can't see anything, and I can't hear anything. I try to move myself, but I can't feel or move anything. It is just blackness and silence. I don't even feel alive right now, like everything has vanished. All of a sudden, I hear a long, high pitched beep. The sound is loud, and I can't cover my ears. After about 30 seconds, I feel a huge shock spread up my body, which I can suddenly feel. The beep continues, and I feel another shock. I want to scream, but I can't do anything. The beep gets a little quieter, and the darkness becomes a bit lighter. I don't feel the shocks as much anymore. Everything seems to fade. I feel light. There are 5 shocks until the beep stops, and it darkens again. There is silence for a long time. I cannot move, and cannot hear. I can only think, and dream.

One week later...

"Austra, please come back to me, I need you," I finally hear something. After endless silence and blackness, it feels like a glimmer of light on a cloudy day. I slowly start to feel my body again, and I fully regain myself soon. I hear rustling, and someone grabs my hand. "Please. If you can hear me, squeeze my hand, please. I need to know that you are okay," they say distressfully. I try my hardest, and squeeze. I hear them gasp, and I try to open my eyes for them. After a few times, I finally am able to open them. Justin looks at me, and sees my eyes. "AUSTRA!! YOUR BACK!!" he shouts gleefully. I smile weakly, and he gently kisses me on the lips. "I missed you babe," he whispers. Tears stream down his face. "I missed you too." I weakly whisper back to him. "Did you hear anything? While you were unconscious? I was always here. Talking to you. Everyday," he says to me. "I saw you Jay. From when I was first rescued to when my heart failed me, I was here. I was outside my body, and I could see and hear everything that was happening, but you couldn't see me. What happened after that Jay? How long was I out for? Why did I feel shocks ?" I whisper. His face darkens, and he rubs his forehead. "Aus, your heart failed. That's why there were shocks. You weren't breathing cause of all the excess water in your lungs. They had to use a defibrillator on you. When you were stable again, you didn't wake up, and you were in a coma for a week," he explains. I try and reach for his hand, and he grabs mine. "Wait, if you were "outside your body," then you saw everything that I did? and everything that everybody else did? Could anyone see you ?" he questions. I nod, "No one could see me, and I did see everything you did. I hated watching you like that. Hurt and in pain, and not one of the reporters cared. All they wanted was a story and a photo." His gaze softens, and I smile. Then his eyes become worried. "You mean you heard and saw everything?" he questions. I immediately know what he is worried about, and I feel bad for him, but I have to lie to him. I know I will feel terrible about it, but I have to. "Did you happen to be in the ambulance when we were going to the hospital? Did you see everything there?" he asks nervously. "I was there, but not in the back where my body was. I sat in the front, next to the medical team," I lie. He gives a small sigh, and I  pull him towards me to kiss him.  "I missed your kisses Austra. I missed you," he whispers when he pulls away. "Lets go tell everyone that your up," he says happily as he gets off the bed, and starts towards the door.

I have been out of the hospital for one week now, and I go back to school today. I don't want to go back at all, but I know I have to. Justin has been with me the whole time, and he isn't leaving until I am fully back to normal. He orders that Moshe comes with me to school, and that I should be in a wheelchair, even though I can walk perfectly. I argue with him all the time about it, and he says he's "just being careful." He has been staying with me, and helping me out around the house. Its really sweet, but Justin gets way too careful and protective sometimes. Like one time, my dog was happy to see me when I came downstairs, and he wouldn't let her near me until she calmed down, and he was holding her. I'm getting better, so he's not as cautious as he was before. Still, he helps me out a lot, and I appreciate it.