sad poetry

fourth

I love the fact when you say your ok they believe that you are even though that morning you looked into the mirror you despise and make many attempts to smile to hide the pain you feel inside, it may be fake but it's not like anyone would notice nor would they notice the cuts on your wrists if they do you make an excuse that they believe easily, when they know you think that your worthless and make many failed attempts to make you feel better but it only ends in it being worse, I've smiled and laughed many times but the question is.....are they real? many never show that there in pain they hide it deep inside but you can't bury it far enough for it to stop anything........ but remember that first time you've harmed yourself and it felt horrible but it helped well after that it's like addiction you can't stop you may burn or cut yourself but it doesn't matter you are intoxicated by the felling you continue to cut or burn to grab a little glimpse of the feeling....

for me I started to burn it helped Noone noticed Noone knew, why? because I don't think they care many have said your amazing, perfect, and beautiful but it doesn't help me get out of this HELL I live in, many also ask why I don't have the popular social media apps but I'm too scared to get them it's happened before so why wouldn't it happen again, now I stopped burning myself but instead I do something common I make myself bleed it's a bad habit now but it's not like many noticed I started but soon cutting may not help anymore and I may take it one step farther.....where I'll finally be...............................................

free