Chasing Emerald /h.s

Running.

Emerald's p.o.v

After I cleaned Harry up we came over to the garden and sat on the empty lawn. The party was still going strong. It was a full moon so I could clearly make out Harry's face. His eyes were glassy and his face was red.

"I'm sorry."

"For what?" I asked.

"For saving you, but the truth is my best friend died and I didn't save her so I've always felt the need to save others, be a protector but I can't. I'm sorry I let you down. God I'm so fuckin' stupid!" This was a side of Harry I've never seen before. He was really so sensitive and soft. His eyes had tears ready to poor out

"Harry, for gods sake you're not stupid! Saving people is hard almost as hard as not saving them but you can't blame yourself for her death!" I was definitely the one to talk, all I've ever done is blamed myself for things. I'm never good enough, I'm never smart enough, I'm never pretty enough, I'm never skinny enough, I'm never enough. But here I am telling Harry's it's not his fault.

"She got raped and killed," he looked down at the ground and let a few tears fall. Clearly this was traumatic for him.I suddenly pulled him into my chest and held him close. "Her name was Rosie," he whispered into my ear." She died four years ago."

"What was she like?"

"She was my best friend, we did everything together. We met at a park when I found her crying her eyes out when I was fifteen and she was a year younger. From that moment on I declared that I would do everything in my favor to never see her cry again. She had a ruff family life. Her dad died before she was born and her mother would have countless men over. One day she came over with puffy red eyes and she told me one of her moms newest boyfriends had been very mean to her but she said it was alright. I tried to help her but she refused . She told me she was fine and she didn't need me to save her. We got into a huge fight and that night I heard screaming coming from her house. It wasn't like the normal screams when her and her mom used to fight. It was a haunting scream piecing my ears and invading my dreams. I went over to her place but nobody let me in so eventually I opened the door and she was dead. Her moms boyfriend raped and killed her. I took my time if I was a minute earlier she would still be alive. I was so fucking stupid, I shouldn't have been so selfish. I was so stupid and from that moment on I can't help trying to protect people weaker than me. I'm sorry Emerald I know you're not Emily but I just can help it."

Harry, I'm sorry you had to go through that, but you can't blame yourself! You're an incredible human and possibly the only person I've ever had feelings for like this. God Harry can't you see how amazing you are?" I yelled at him. He looked up and his eyes still had that sad look in them that made me want to run over and tell him everything was going to be okay. He suddenly reached over and pulled me into him.

"Emerald, I love you."

"Harry," I said softly looking into his eyes. "You don't even know who I am!" I yelled," God, even I don't know who I am." Harry was about to protest and probably make a long speech about how he's loved me since he first saw me and then I'll supposedly say I feel the same and we live happily ever after. I got up and gave harry one last look before I ran off. I don't even know why I was running away from harry, I've always been running I guess I'm just used to it.