Even If It's Hard

Chapter#8

Brie's Pov

kahit na nasabi nya ang mga katagang yun, di ko pa rin maisip kung totoo ba yung mga sinasabi nya... pero mas pinili ko na lang na wag itong pansinin at pumasok sa loob ng coffee shop hindi naman ako nahirapan na makita sya dahil nandon lang naman sya malapit sa may pinto ...

" Maria "  lumingon naman sya ng marinig ang pagtawag ko ...

" Brie, dumating ka ... Ahmm upo ka muna "  pagkaraan umupo na din ako para matapos na ang lahat...

" ano ba yung sinasabi mo na mahalaga mong sasabihin??? "  sabi ko sa halatang boses na nagmamadali...

" you know what, i love kian so much at kahit na alam kong hindi kami pareho ng nararamdaman pinipilit ko kasi sabi ko darating ang araw mamahalin nya din ako, darating ang araw na makakalimutan ka nya at ako ang mamahalin, pero there you are... You're back, while your back kian's feelings too is back ... Nakita ko naman ang lungkot sa mata nya, i know how hurt she is, that's what i feel when i was moving on from kian ... Pero wala akong magagawa that's life it's normal to be hurt physical or emotional ...

" Maria can you just get to the point, because i have a meeting to my office ..."  sabi ko, even though i have a clue where this conversation will go, i want to hear it from her ...

" Brie please give me my kian i have a cancer, I'm weak and my life is just a little... I want to be with Kian before i die, i want to spent my last days with him, can you give me that happiness as a gift??? Please Brie can i have kian's attention and forget about you until i die ??? Please ..." it hurts me a lot, again i'm in a middle of pain again! How many times do i have to feel this way ... I have to let go my feelings again for kian and sacrifice my own happiness for another person ... What a good life, and a good day to start, i feel that there's something inside me is breaking into pieces how come? I though i've move on, but i think i'm not i'm still inlove with kian and now i have to sacrifice ...

" pag iisipan ko Maria, pagiisipan ko dahil pareho lang naman tayong nasasaktan..." sabi ko na lamang at tumayo na upang lisanin ang lugar na iyon, nakakatatlong hakbang pa lamang ako ng mag salita si maria...

" thank you Brie for your time, even though i know your answer i try my best ... And like what you said we're both in pain, don't sacrifice your own happiness just for me, i can manage my life thank you ..." at lumapit sya sakin at inakap ako at dun napaiyak na din ako ... Alam kong hindi ko kayang i give up si kian ...

Matapos ang usapan namin ni maria doon sa coffee shop dumiretso na ako sa office ko at nagpakuha ng malamig na tubig sa secretary ko na si alaina, si alaina ay mabait, tahimik sa ibang tao sakin lang hindi, maganda, maputi at kung titignan napakasimple lang nya tignan sya ang isa sa mga tinuturin kong kaibigan at mapagkakatiwalaan ng sikreto... Nabalik lamang ako sa pag-iisip ng may kumatok sa pinto...

" come in " sabi ko habang minamasahe ang sintido ko, mas lalo namang kumunot ang noo ko ng makita ko si kian... Ano naman ang ginagawa ng isang to dito, hindi ba't may trabaho pa sya ...

" Hi ..."  bati nya sakin ...

" What are you doing here??? " i ask without even looking at him, well para saan pa't titignan ko sya diba ...

" That's a rude way of greeting your SOON TO BE HUSBAND honey ..." sabi nya while emphasizing the word " soon to be husband "

" Well i don't care if it's rude.. and yes, you'll be my husband soon but you know what, i can ditched our wedding if i want to... So don't assume much my SOON TO BE HUSBAND ..." and there i stood up, and ready to get out of my office, but he pull my arm and whisper to my ear ...

" Do what ever you want Brie, but remember my word, you want it or not your mine ... So don't do something bad that can make me mad, understand ??? " he said without even saying goodbye or glancing at me ...

I'm not aware of that, muntikan na ata akong mawalan ng hininga kanina buti na lang at nakalabas na sya... Kian's change a lot, he's not the kian i know before... Ano bang gagawin ko i can't really think right ...

Maybe i should call nicole, para naman may katulong ako sa pagiisip, dahil kung ako lang eh baka mabaliw ako nito tsk! I dialed nicole's number and after a minute she answer ...

[" hey sis, problem??? " ] kilala nya talaga ako pag may problema ako o wala hayss...

" ahmmm, can we meet in your unit??? Where are you??? " sabi ko, habang naghihintay ng isasagot nya ...

[" Sige sis, una ka na sa unit ko may tatapusin lang ako ... Bye love yah ..."] mukang nasa trabaho ata si nicole at naistorbo ko pa nakakahiya naman ...

" sige bye sis, thank you ..." at pagkatapos ng paguusap namin ay umalis na ako ng opisina...

Mga 30mins. Ang byahe papunta don sa unit ni nicole buti na lang at nakarating ako agad dahil gusto ko ng magpahinga, pagpasok ko ng unit nya dumiretso ako sa kama at nahiga... Gusto kong magrelax, makakatulog na sana ako kaso may biglang nagtext...
From unknown number, at isang galing kay nicole, inuna ko na yung kay nicole ...

From nicole: " sis malapit na ko wait mo na lang ako ah, kumain ka lang dyan kung nagugutom ka na, tingin ka lang sa freezer may chocolates don yung paborito mo ..." hayss how sweet, alam nyang paborito ko yun kaya bumibili sya, di naman kasi sya mahilig sa chocolates ako lang, pampatanggal stress ...

To nicole: " thanks sis, you really are the best, ingat... " reply ko sa kanya at di naman nagtagal at nagreply sya ...

From nicole: " yah, i know... You don't have to say it, No problem ..."  reply nya sa text ko, di na ko nagreply at tinignan naman ang isang message from unknown number ...

From Unknown Number: " hey honey, pick you up at 5pm ... Bye love you ..." sabi sa text, how did he get my number??? Well i don't care i save he's number

To kian: " Don't waste you're time on me, don't pick me up... I can manage myself ... Don't pretend that you do care about me, cause i don't like it ... Do what ever you want and like what you said i will do what ever i want ..." reply ko sa text nya, i'm not serious about what i text ... I just want to let him know that i have my life, i have my own freedom, i have my own time, and i have my own decision ...
Hindi ko na hinintay pa ang reply nya at pumunta na sa kusina para kumuha ng chocolates na paborito ko ...

A/N: bago po ako nag update nitong story na to pinagisipan ko po muna kung itutuloy ko pa ba, kasi parang wala naman pong nagbabasa... Pero dahil ayaw ko naman pong masayang lang to tatapusin ko may mag basa man o wala ok lang po ... Pero thank you pa din po sa mga magbabasa... Sorry na lang din po sa mga grammatical error at wrong grammar... Yun lang po, Enjoy reading guys ...